Lyrics from YouTube Vlog "BRUTALLY HONEST DAY IN THE LIFE" (13:55 - 14:08)

I hate that I called
And I hate that you knew what to say

And I [?] that I'd be stronger
'Til I unblocked your number
Watch those texts go from green back to blue

Lyrics from YouTube Vlog "BRUTALLY HONEST DAY IN THE LIFE" (14:31 - 15:12)

[Verse]
All the nights I most regret
Are all the ones I messed up bad
And called you like I'm about to
'Cause you did things I can't forget
But right now I'll pretend
That I don't hate you
'Cause I'd hate to

Ooh, ooh
God, I hate that I love you on the way

Lyrics From Snippet (3:19)

But the devil you know beats
The devil that you don't
Oh, I hate that I called
And I hate that you knew just what to say
To make me break
And I can't hang it up
'Cause I can't help but to thinkin' that you'll change