[Intro]
My thoughts
Are getting a little too loud

[Verse]
Shit is really sad
I spend more time with this pen and pad than my own family
Busy gettin' to the bag, workin' hard so I can hold Grammy
I want this shit so fuckin' bad, so my dreams ain’t takin' no back seat
Its hard for me to split the time
A part of me just wish to die
So, I don’t gotta deal with pain
Does God even listen to my cries?
Does he exist or is it lies?
Cause if he did why I feel the same?
Afraid to fall in love, I don’t wanna to get hurt again
And give a bitch the world again
End up depressed, feel the worst again
My trust, time and love no one dеserves again
New girls turn to еx’s, I’m writin' a verse again
Gotta be careful who I’m spendin' my time with
That cost a pretty penny and I lost plenty
So all you gettin' is hi and bye
I am not beggin' for a reply
I gotta stop stressin', but my hearts heavy
My nana’s cancer reached stage four
Angry with God cause what the fuck was the prayin' for
I love her a lot, need to say it more
Cause I don’t how many days are left
Before she takes her last breath
My heart gon' stay torn
The devil on my shoulder gettin' louder
He sayin', nobody cares for you
He sayin', I should kill my self
He sayin', if you do nobody shed a tear for you
Now you need some help
But who’s here for you
Goin' through troublin' times wonderin' why God doesn’t wanna save me
Cause my mind racin' and I try daily just to let it go
Hidin' behind fake smiles lately and nobody knows
I’ve been keepin' this inside, so nobody worries
My demons very much alive and I’m fuckin' hurtin'
Can’t even sleep at night, without tossin' and turnin'
I have nobody to sit and talk
It’s just me and my thoughts