[Intro: Soldier Kidd]
And it's like, I know I'm a good person (Egonbeup)
But I'm so fucked up in my head (I don't be thinking straight)
And I be crying out for help in these songs but nobody helpin' shit (Come on, come on)

[Chorus: Soldier Kidd]
I swear I be talkin', but nobody wanna hear me
Mama, I'm so heartless 'cause the way these people did me
V-A-D Apartments, we was thuggin' with that glizzy
I'm steady catchin' charges, wonder when they finna get me
It's a thug paradise, swear I been here for a while
You know I cry 'cause it's so hard to smile
And I can't liе, I got that fire on me now
Say, why my life been so hard sincе a child?

[Verse 1: NoCap]
Pull up Demon and go skrrt, skrrt just like all them pots
Live that rockstar lifestyle, we might not survive
And I, I used to dream for this moment
But now that it came, I do not want it no more
I'm on to better things
They thinkin' money made me happy, but it made me evil
I still get low in that jungle with all my hyenas
Ain't talkin' Kanye, but I'm dangerous like a chemical
I'm dead wrong for missing C-Lo and Duke funeral
They say they found my n***a dead in an alley
I don't wanna hoop no more, don't wanna lose
I just stack that money until my eyes turn blue
And I spend that shit on jewels
[Chorus: Soldier Kidd]
I swear I be talkin', but nobody wanna hear me
Mama, I'm so heartless 'cause the way these people did me
V-A-D Apartments, we was thuggin' with that glizzy
I'm steady catchin' charges, wonder when they finna get me
It's a thug paradise, swear I been here for a while
You know I cry 'cause it's so hard to smile
And I can't lie, I got that fire on me now
Say, why my life been so hard since a child?

[Verse 2: Soldier Kidd]
They gon' want to see us dead before they ever see us up
And I'm livin' by that lead, I said I'm dead, I give it up
You don't love me like you said, what the fuck happened to love?
I say my n***a doin' fed, he still ain't give nobody up
'Cause all we see is red, we got no home
I done laid this bed and I don't wanna sleep alone
I ain't got no friends, why the fuck I'm all alone?
Ride to the end, they know I'm comin' with that chrome
And I don't want to die, Lord
But they gon' have to give me what I strive for
I know them n***as come for me, but what's the high for?
Triple X, you and me, it's what I die for, come on

[Chorus: Soldier Kidd]
I swear I be talkin', but nobody wanna hear me
Mama, I'm so heartless 'cause the way these people did me
V-A-D Apartments, we was thuggin' with that glizzy
I'm steady catchin' charges, wonder when they finna get me
It's a thug paradise, swear I been here for a while
You know I cry 'cause it's so hard to smile
And I can't lie, I got that fire on me now
Say, why my life been so hard since a child?