Intro - Someone give me a lighter please
*lighter sparks*

First verse

I don't know myself, I can't feel myself, a month ago I tried to kill myself, my sister caught me and I broke down, she asked me how long it's been like this I don't know now. All I know is this, all I know is this, for life, rolled on me like a load of bricks, I would write till my worries became my only wings, I got older and folded and started holding emotions in. 4 5, meet my mind, I used to cry, used to cry, contemplate suicide, I used to sigh saying who am I, a little voice used to reply, in my head said you are Mic, loosing sight, over time, SHUT MY SON OUT LIKE I'M CLOSING BLINDS. ALL I KNOW IS DEATH ALL I KNOW IS DYING, ALL I KNOW IS PEN ALL I KNOW IS WRITING, ALL I KNOW IS RECK ALL I KNOW IS RIGHTEOUS, ???? ALL I KNOW IS I'M HIM, IN THE UNDERGROUND, FUCK THE MAINSTREAM, IN THE SAME POSITION I WAS IN WHEN I WAS 18, am I creative or am I crazy? Am I complacent or am I lazy? Am I just being the same me, am I changing? Is my Cape ripped?

AM I CRYING X2



What's your life like aye? , what's your life like? What's your life like? Pray to God that it ain't like mine! What's your life like? Pray to God that it ain't like mine! Pray to God and get a lifeline, what's your life like? What's your life like

Yo, my headteacher told me that I'm not like most of us, from that day I always felt like the only one that won't be loved, they say it makes better for a lonely soul to open up I say don't be dumb I spoke to those I love and now we broken up and we don't speak but they know so much, I'd rather trust no one bottle every one of my emotions up, now it's too late to take the advice of everyone that I know and love

I MIGHT TAKE A MONTHS PARACETAMOL AT ONCE, WITH NO ONE HERE TO HELP ME THROW THEM UP

X2 MY SOUL IS NUMB FROM THE ALCOHOL AND DRUGS

And i'm drinking from the can again smoking the cannabis til i'm chokin' like cannubis, cause i know that i have a gift, i know that i have to spit but there's so much i haven't seen going from never having shit to having shit to back to never having shit, this whole thing, overly challenging, everyday i'm getting older and closer to vanishing, got everybody looking at me and hoping it happens quick, i know i'll handle this i put all of my passion in, call my family and friends and i tell 'em i'm gone again but i'm back on this rapping shit i fact i never even left and if you don't think it's happening then fuck you cause i'm adament, i gotta do this for the man, i do this for elisia and his grandad when i die i wouldn't matter so i do this for you, on some do or die shit, suicide you decide if, you really got the balls to fit the shoes that i'm in, think i'm doing fine you don't know the mood that i'm in, rappers always clubbin wonder who the fuck is even writing their shit, studio life you ain't? time to do the right thing, no sign of human life like i'm sxlcuba diving, you judas hate my music and you crucify it, to find a diamond yeah you gotta do some mining, ain't tryna hear you liars like you just miming, in due time the truth will rise and when we survive you shall die, who am i, the one that'll do this until i lose my mind, a screw loose do up the locks, before you ever have a change i'ma boot 'em off. said i'd never get a million views you're wrong, said i'd never get a top ten, wrong again, you said i'd never get a top ten, wrong again

DO THIS FOR US, WHY THE FUCK WOULD I STOP FOR THEM


What's your life like aye? , what's your life like? What's your life like? Pray to God that it ain't like mine! What's your life like? Pray to God that it ain't LIKE mine. What's your life, what's your life what's your life like