Until I'm dead, I'm getting red
Until I'm [?], I'm getting hit
Until I'm dead, I'll get ahead
Until I'm dead, I'm seeing red

I love you so much stay the fuck away from me
I'm directed by a power you can't see
Can't put my finger on just what you mean to me
I have never been about consistency

I appreciate every ounce of kindness and care anyone has ever given me. But my whole life I've based my decisions on what will cause the least nеgative reaction from the pеople around me rather than doing what I actually feel I want to do, and even then, half the time I'm still exploited, expelled, or made into a scapegoat in the end, regardless of how empathetic or considerate I strive to be. It's robbed me of a lot of enrichment and opportunity and I'm just tired of living like that. So I'm no longer sticking my neck out, because now I'm protecting it. I'm done changing my shape for other people, I'm done letting myself be bogged down by emotions that don't even belong to me. From now on, all of my blood belongs to me and myself alone

I love you so much stay the fuck away from me
I'm directed by a power you can't see
Can't put my finger on just what you mean to me
I have never been about consistency
I love you so much stay the fuck away from me
I'm directed by a power you can't see
Can't put my finger on just what you mean to me
I have never been about consistency

Y'know those days where you think you might accomplish something but then you smoke weed and do nothing instead and you just stare at the wall feeling bad that you're not doing anything and then the most depressing and anxiety-inducing song that you know suddenly gets stuck in your head for no reason and you really wish that it wouldn't but you won't get up and do anything to distract yourself because you're too busy being perfectly still and useless and a piece of shit?