[Verse 1]
Yeah, I've been let down way too many times
Yeah, it's hard to smile, when you can’t sleep at night
I'm not lying, when I say I'm trying
Life's on a click track, I can't rewind
It won't slow down, I've been in a rut
Ever since the day that I grew up
I was way too young, now I'm not enough
All the abuse just fucked me up
And no, I'm not talking about me
I'm talkin 'bout my family
I've witnessed so much pain, so much grief
I wipe my eyes and grit my teeth
Why would you let that in your life?
I just don't understand it
This home, it feels so abandoned
I feel I'm on a different planet
Can't stand it

[Chorus]
I'm in the background (Background)
Tear my face from the walls, now I'm blacked out
Don't act out (Don't act out)
What's wrong with that now? (Now)
I'm all alone
Yеs, you know it's a funny fact how (Fact how)
You still doubt about my past
Well, this shit's been real, so don't think too fast
It won't last
I need somebody to rеact to me, 'cause I've been through these tragedies
I'm just tired of all the seasons passing me
[Verse 2]
When will you wake up, stop staring at yourself?
I know you're all alone and you're scared to get help
But just realize that this time you're all you have, so strap on the belt
Pick up the pieces, get it together
You can make it through this torrential weather
Drop of an ocean, but as light as a feather
These dreams don't have to be yours forever
I, I know you're scared
If you can just guide yourself, you'll find the tear and
I am finding hope, that maybe one day you'll learn and grow (Learn and grow)
Grow into another person, one that won't quit and finds a purpose
Keep on saying "I don't deserve this", someone loves you, just find who's worth it
All this time I've been righting my wrongs, throw away the pain and keep it calm
Bottled inside, I'm a ticking bomb, that's why I write every line in this song and
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[Chorus]
I'm in the background (Background)
Tear my face from the walls, now I'm blacked out
Don't act out (Don't act out)
What's wrong with that now? (Now)
I'm all alone
Yes, you know it's a funny fact how (Fact how)
You still doubt about my past
Well, this shit's been real, so don't think too fast
It won't last
I need somebody to react to me, 'cause I've been through these tragedies
I'm just tired of all the seasons passing me