Lil Ugly Mane
man wearing a helmet
[Verse 1]
Crouched down by the tree at his neighbors
He liked the way the bark ripped off like paper
He pretended he was Superman, eyes had lasers
Every step he took turned earth into craters
Little brown jacket, Lee jeans with a cuff
Bowl cut, blue and yellow mismatched Chucks
He's a sitting duck, didn't hear the car pull up
Thought his arm broke when they shoved him in the trunk
[Verse 2]
Brake light, night light, choking on his tear snot
"Fear not" summarize the voice within an earshot
Muffled through the seats, stale smoke
He can hear Scott-Heron singing "Home Is Where the Hatred Is"
Home is where they took him from and he don't know who's taken him
Puffy eyes, pissed pants, sore throat, scream like a whisper
Fists beat the backseat every time he whimpers
He can see his own breath, it's the middle of the winter
X-Men hologram card that was in his coat
A single source of hope as they speedin' up the road
He traded comics for it, he got a sleeve for its protection
He's just glad he got it with him, it's his one possession
He miss his mom's affection
He miss the dinosaur blanket on the bed that he slept in
Miss throwing sticks so the dog would go fetch 'em
Missed makin' forts in the woods with his best friend
[Verse 3]
Car stops, door slams
Wonders who he is, he just doesn't understand
Chafed legs, denim tears, piss, vomit
Wishing he could change into his blue pajamas
Superman logo with a cape on it
Then maybe he'd escape into space like a comet
He hears an engine's sputter, fatigued from the travel
He listens as footsteps grind in the gravel
Maybe he can leave if he promise not to tattle
The trunk wasn't Eden but he knew he was the apple
Streetlights flooded as the trunk popped open
Hoping for a relief or a reason he was chosen
Lurking was a silhouette with unfamiliar hands
Now he's a shaking mess, carried 'cause he couldn't stand
Bluish glow of television flickers in a stairwell
Led into a lair, he got sick from how the air smells
He's with his parents in his brain, this is their hell
He felt the worry in his bones, he don't fare well
Against these monsters in this crypt, in this hidden jail
All this time passed, I'm still scared that I'm there still
[Hook]
All these fucking years I just don't remember
All this fucking time I just don't remember
Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember
Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember
All these fucking years I just don't remember
All this fucking time I just don't remember
Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember
Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember
All these fucking years I just don't remember
All this fucking time I just don't remember
Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember
Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember
[Bridge]
Was there a life before the one I know now?
Was I lost and just never ever found?
Was I found and then forced to forget
Just a secret that nobody can admit?
Was there a life before the one I know now?
Was I lost and just never ever found?
Was I found and then forced to forget
Just a secret that nobody can admit?
[Hook]
All these fucking years I just don't remember
All this fucking time I just don't remember
Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember
Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember
All these fucking years I just don't remember
All this fucking time I just don't remember
Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember
Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember
All these fucking years I just don't remember
All this fucking time I just don't remember
Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember
Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember
All these fucking years I just don't remember