[Verse]
20 years old and still I'm soul searching
All I want in life is to know my sole purpose
Everyday I'm trying to figure out what my worth is
I'm just a flawed human, I'm far from being perfect
I don't know, man, I'm trying to work it
Sometimes I consider the noose my only option
Don't know the world around me, I'm very boxed in
Locked in my own reality, not sure what's real no more
They often like me for a good laugh, oh I know
But when the laugh is over it's like they all gone
Does anyone even really care though? Maybe I care too much
Maybe I'm too distant, maybe it's all my fault and such
I'm preparing myself, but will I make it out there?
I can't even ever approach people without fear
Look around and see people doing many things
Look back at myself and wonder if I'm good for anything
Nobody really knows me, stop saying you know me
I'm very, very lonely, don't have too many homies
Why don't you come by just to say hi?
I'm a very nice guy, aren't I? Oh my
There's more to me than what meets the eye
There's a lot that lays beneath this smile
These thoughts are hot in my mind, feel like I'm melting
But I guess that's true for everyone, I'm being selfish
I'm a very happy person only with a troubled soul
Have experienced a little bit as far as trouble goes
My mental scars don't heal very well, I'm in pain
Can't even really sleep at night, my mind's insane
I'm strange, somewhere along the way I was led astray
Looking at myself in the mirror could mess up a whole day
Regret a lot of stuff that I've said
No one would probably notice if I ended up dead
Still I'm gon' live til I die and nobody can stop me
But I put other lives before mine cause they more costly
So many hurdles, why was I not born a better person?
I'm just my average regular self, wanna be a better version
A little bit of intelligence wouldn't really hurt me
Don't ever have anything to talk about, I'm very boring
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep and the tears are pouring
Shit is deep, a different side of me, I'm exploring
But these are past thoughts from my past self, let's go on
I'm in a better place, these feelings are long gone
All that's missing now is the gentle touch from my loved one
I'm certain it's gon' happen one day, I believe
Watch me succeed, I'm 'bout to kill shit for the time being
Step in the room and my presence alone will inspire
Don't need any drugs in my system for me to be higher
Spread my wings in the air, I'm gonna be so much flyer
Than everyone, everywhere, everytime, I'm just so cool
Oh I'm feeling myself, I know you feeling me too
I realized I'm actually pretty awesome and so are you
Don't bow to no one but God, you just a man
I'll fix every problem in the world then do the justice dance
You better believe that's just the way I am
Sometimes I smile when I wake up then I be laughing
Look at every negative thing in my life and just trash it
No matter what you been through, no matter how you feel
In the end it's all gonna be alright, just look at me
Just look at me, just look at you, just look at you