[Verse]
Fully charged for 2020
But 10 days in and I’m feeling empty
All these promises I promised myself
Have been broken
I sit here in envy Flipped it now I’m in the dumps
Already had enough
Feel trapped like I’m in cuffs
Depressed but blessed
Yea that’s no fun
But that’s me (Agh!) Depression is a disease
That can kill instantly
Yea, everything I do is wrong (No!)
Look into the mirror and I don’t know who I see
Man...I guess I’m just lost
Lost for words, lost for thoughts, lost a lot
Emotionally frozen
Lost my heart
Got no soul like I’m a robot
Used to think I was chosen
Now I’m not, Used to open up now I’m Closing up
Now I’m Closing blinds
And locking doors
Tryna remember what I was fighting for
Tryna think back to when I was more
I’m just unsure...Insecure, I’m so lost
Lost my soul, missed my shot
Everything is gone, I’m just distraught
I won’t give
But I have fought
Fought for a while and nothing has improved
And I’m so sick and tired of trying
I been holding this in
I been lying
I’m letting my demons out of my mind in unhealthy ways
Drown in the bottles I empty in me
And you could care less
Soon to be another ex?
Naw
You wouldn’t do that, would you?
I don’t know what the truth is anymore
These are my choices (Choices)