[Intro]
Sweat pours out of me
While liquor runs through me
If I don't kill myself
I can't help but hope I made you proud

[Verse 1]
Huh, I'm pouring out this bottle till I'm feeling myself, yeah
Bruises on my chest from the last night out, yeah
Cuts on my thighs from my own damn self
And the hardest part of it all is admitting that you need help
They see me on live, they feel me on live
But I was so drunk, and I was so high
This fifty-five inch emulate the coastline
While I record pain, yeah, I expose mine, mm

[Chorus]
Though it's not easy, it's not that easy, but it works
You could tell I'm fighting shit and honestly, it hurts
I throw my heart outside my window and go bеrserk
Just know the doom I make you feel, I fеlt it first
Oh, Amanda, I was broken before I knew you and you helped me
The hardest part is tryna prove to loved ones that you healthy
With snot pouring out my nose and half my liver virtually melting
Your voice sounds nice but I don't listen to what you tell me
[Verse 2]
Hear my words and find peace in our anger
It's funny how after all of this time I'm now a stranger
The second I lost you, I felt life grew so much bleaker
Now the way you're so appalled by my smile, I feel like a creature to you
If I do not awaken, lay me down gently
Please do not protect me from the ghouls that dissect me
And I know that I hide my emotions
But it's in the benefit of enjoying the moment, yeah
I don't get along with no one this easy
So tell me your motive before I fall in love, mm

[Chorus]
Though it's not easy, it's not that easy, but it works
You could tell I'm fighting shit and honestly, it hurts
I throw my heart outside my window and go berserk
Just know the doom I make you feel, I felt it first
Oh, Amanda, I was broken before I knew you and you helped me
The hardest part is tryna prove to loved ones that you healthy
With snot pouring out my nose and half my liver virtually melting
Your voice sounds nice but I don't listen to what you tell me