Laura Stevenson
On Companionship
[Verse: Protagonist]
For every revelatory
Find and change
I have experienced in the last many days
There is an absence
A missing part
The other breathing;
Another human’s beating heart
But moreover, it’s the talking over hurdles
And the talking out of rashness
The challenges to sadness
That come from
Hearing a voice that’s not yours
Deflecting every leap of logic
That oozes from your pores
I’m realizing now
That ain’t easy to find
Don’t need a body to hold
I need eyes in the unknown
So pick it up fast
While you’ve still got the time
Although you hate to admit it, you won’t make it alone
Said I’m dying
Heard it’s nothing but a chest cold
Said I’m nothing
Heard you’re something to me
Said there’s something I’m not comprehending, where’s the ending
Heard you skid half a mile down Donohoe street
Is where we left off
Abrupt, your expression
I hadn’t recalled
That was then, now we’ve ten days left
And I’m wondering if you’re up and what you’re up to
Creature of habit
I knew right where to find you
The old video store you worked at
Must’ve been midnight
You were bunkered in the back
Midway through ‘After Hours’ on a tube tv
And VCR by battery
Teri Garr and Tommy Chong and 'Pay To Cum'
I stood behind you and I watched
You didn’t notice I had come
To interrupt your silence
Your final moments
Seemed the very last thing I should do
So I backpedaled away from you
Looked happier there
Than I’d seen you in a while
After all, ’twas I
Needed a guide in the unknown
So, genuine peace
Must stem from being alone
That’s when you spun me around and put a dent in my shoulder
[Verse: Protagonist and Violet]
Violet: How’d you find me?
Protag: Well, we run our sequence obviously
Violet: If that’s true, why aren’t you locked in your home?
I don’t wanna die looking into your eyes
Protag: Figured so, that’s why I thought I’d get going
Violet: You know, you’re a curse. When I was seeking the best, it was like you actually wanted the worst
Goddammit, boy, you got it
You got those answers you were looking for, don’t look so downtrodden
Fuck!
I tried anger, then I tried sadness, then I tried rage, then I tried crying
I bet it thrilled you, to abandon someone
I bet it cauterized quicker cause of just how hard I'd been trying
I could’ve used someone here
For this world ending ordeal
Protag: I’m here right now
Violet: But you may as well not be
You can stay, if only for pity
So you hit stucco stead of slinging through the streets