[Verse 1]
Messing with depression I'm still pissed that I ain’t cope
Dealing with scandals in my head like I’m Olivia Pope
I got demons living inside me soul like Insidious Ghost
Body hopping to other people when they get in too close
I got walls up for protection not for me but more for you
Cause if I showed you all my problems you would see how much I'm screwed
Can’t afford to let you bare my burden
I’m scared my lack of work on earth
Gon leave you sadly hurtin’
Back the fuck up for you safety
I won’t say it twice
If you dare cross the caution tape it's gone cost you your lifе
I never asked to bе saved, I never asked for no savior
My faith is shaky like voices of those who ask for a favor
Like what the fuck you need?
Slave to my issues all the time I feel nothing is free
Therapist be taxing so I’m ducking all the session
Shawty texting, “You Okay” but I be ducking all her message
Got me asking myself all these different questions like

[Chorus]
Should I be alive
Maybe i should leave
Imma be alright
Where I’m posed to be
Sadly I don’t know
Sadly I don’t know
[Verse 2]
Die to live, live to love
Open up your eyes and see my time is not worth giving up
Felt like I ain’t did enough
Liquor fills my liver let that Jose Cuervo lift me up
Visions of the people that I lost are starting hit me up
Like n***a how’d you get here?
I’m still unconscious
Bodily fluids splurge from out me as it hit my garbage
Throwing up sucks my body can’t control it
PlusI really feel alive within hopeless moment
Now I see it clear
If we all destined to die
Then i should never live in fear
If we all destined to fly
Then i should step away from peers
All them chains that’s in my mind
Should kindly start to disappear
Every time I speak to Nas
He try to tell me this the year
Every time I speak to God
I feel he might just hit decline
Cause he got faith in where I’m heading it was made in my design
I’m expected to exceed in ways that’s greater than the times
I might’ve doubted shit before but now i think i made my mind
[Chorus]
Cause
I’m alive
Maybe I won’t leave
Imma be alright
Where I’m pose to be
Something that I know
Something that I know
Something that I know