James Fauntleroy
Say My Name
Instrumental: Girls Love Beyoncé by Drake
[First Verse]
Today? That should be my day of no luck
It’s the thirteenth/ weren’t we here just a second ago?
Oh, a year maybe? That’s my reckoning so
Recollecting on how we disconnected
I fell through the cracks/ came back nauseated
And hating the fact my insecurities kept pulling me down for real
So sick/ couldn’t go/ feeling to throw up
I was torn up/ thoughts tormented and so fucked
Going insane ‘cause I chose one
Couldn’t fathom ever having to let her go
And you know what? I’d be lying in my bed
Stare up the ceiling ‘til the minute that she’d walk by
And step inside/ say ‘hi’/ chill a bit
Then at best give a hug or a goodbye and yet
I would pray she stayed like the days that we lost
Making our way to the way that we was
But my major mistake – I remained unlocked
Put my all on display but then failure popped
Wave after wave but I still gave a fuck
Wish I was making this up but I’m not
There were days I would wake up and then doze straight off
‘Cause I couldn’t deal with it
Mind, body, soul set ablaze/ make it stop!
I would say to myself/ hate how I felt
This girl got me so dishevelled to the point
That the Devil himself couldn’t take it
And put in a request that I’d be sent straight out of Hell
I’m not one to place the blame for any of this major pain
That I was put through/ wishing you would say name
Because I felt hurt/ trapped in this cell worth less
And I ain’t even got to the L word yet
[Hook: Drake & James Fauntleroy]
Say my name say my name
If no one is around you
Say ‘baby, I love you’
If you ain’t running game
Say my name say my name
You acting kinda shady
Baby why the sudden change?
Say my name say my name
Say my name, ooh
Say my name say my name
If no one is around you
[Second Verse]
See I felt hurt
But I never gave up/ I was mad/ too attached
I was dumb/ I was blind/ I was axing the facts
Ignoring every instinct/ collapse ‘em and act
Like everything was okay/ I was being me
Then I started seeing cracks/ soon enough
There was no way I could ever feel like I’d match up
To these man you would hang with so I backed up
Struggling in silence/ muffling my voice
No more muscle to get violent
Stepped up a gear still I felt like my rebuttal had no mileage
Tired out/ drained and trapped in this madness/ unh
At times I could swear I was an actor
Tryna be like these guys/ oh my…
Think back like “KD, why would you do that shit?!”
Selling out just to tell ‘em how you were there
Take notice but still you would let her down
You dived in headfirst/ got hurt and that’s it
Better man up and stand up and act in a manner
That won’t go expose just how deeply enamoured
You are with this girl and then damage your status
Shatter your chances/ your heart and your sanity
Man I remember that happening back then how manic I felt
What I had with this girl brought me back to anxiety (Ugh!)
Who the fuck was I tryna be?! (Ugh!)
Couldn’t help but think rightfully (Ungh!)
That you’d never be mine fully (Nah…)
[Hook: Drake & James Fauntleroy]
Say my name say my name
If no one is around you
Say ‘baby, I love you’
If you ain’t running game
Say my name say my name
You acting kinda shady
Baby why the sudden change?
Say my name say my name
Say my name, ooh
Say my name say my name
If no one is around you
[Third Verse]
So a year back from today
I was in my room with a few tracks I could play
As a soundtrack to my night
We had talked/ sorted shit/ got along
No scraps on the plate but we still weren’t acting the same
Sat back had this one track on replay
Then I realised next day it was V Day
Fuck! We weren’t together but we were
So was I obliged to assign you a gift
And remind you of how much I liked you? Shit…
So I dashed out to get you some flowers but they were sold out
(Ah fuck’s sake…) Came back to my seat so defeated
I think that you came home late with some flowers and gifts
That some other guy showered you with
I ain’t gonna lie/ I was down I was pissed
Felt like I lost all power from my grip
I was bound to this black cloud hounding me
Sick…but I didn’t show anger aimed at a man that I didn’t know
Fuck that! I was down for that shit
Tryna decode everything you were saying
I was overthinking all these codes and meanings
In my Mona Lisa in the hope one day that you’d know I mean it
‘Cause the coldest feeling was not knowing
You see its…(KD!!!)
(Alright alright…)
Fast forward past all the bullshit and let’s look at March onwards
Skip ahead to tonight where I’m with you
But this time I got my flowers and gifts all ready to surprise you
It’s only now I look back ‘cause I can with a smile
Yeah we had those times/ you get mad all the time
But nowadays I don’t even have to ask if you wanna be my Valentine
I would never say that…
That was just for you…