[Verse]
Yo, I don't wanna live no more
Sometimes I hear death knockin' at my front door
I'm livin everyday like a hustle, another drug to juggle
Another day another struggle, yo
I know it's fucked up what a lack of cake'll do
A few people wanna move in and stay with you
You wish you could help 'em all, but you ain't able to
Cause the rent's a lil' late plus the cable's due
You and your girlfriend are beefin' in a serious way
You used to be faithfulyou at a curious stage
Finally got your mind made on going your separate ways WAIT
Nah homeboy, her period's late now THINK
Your time's runnin out do it quickly
'Cause she starts crying, mood's gettin sticky
If I don't want it she'll want nothing to do with me
JUST GET THE ABORTION AND I'LL GIVE YOU THE 250!
But if you say that to her then you wrong
You ain't think 'bout that, you was gettin your groove on
Can't take care of myself never mind a new born
I guess the pussy got too good for too long
Seems like my money goes by too easy
Why I hate that my job only pays bi-weekly
Hoopty done shitted, you spending more money tryna fix it
Than when you did tryin to get it (C'MON!)
Fridge is empty, but I survive the hunger
Who the fuck keeps calling from this private number?
There's crime on my mind and my nails are dirty
The floors are real cold in the jails of Jersey
Depression starts talking and his voice is raspy
'CAUSE HE AIN'T SHUT THE FUCK UP IN 3 AND A HALF WEEKS!
Look, beard is full, hair is nappy
These jeans ain't mine so they way too baggy
Priorities is fucked shit startin to gas me
It's like my little man's life slipped right past me (talk to em)
Starting to trap me, his name's Dwayne SO WHY THE FUCK MY SON KEEP CALLIN' HIM DADDY?!
Same shit that I feared after all these years
I gotta breathe I can't believe my ears
Wipin out my eyes I'm damn near in tears
But you can't be mad, you know you ain't been there (nah)
Grab his moms I throw her against the door
But in the back of your mind you know it ain't her fault (nah)
I ain't mad at all, I'm just bothered
I get honest for real I ain't been the best father like
Toys 'R Us, Chuck E Cheese
You know a little boy grow up with these needs
New Year's or Christmas, even the birthday
At least bring the n***a to his school on the first day (OHHHH)
I can't believe it, this the same way that I was treated
So maybe it's history repeated
I know it sounds sick the idea of having another kid
But this one it really feel like it's his (OHHHH)
It's the truth and I hate that fact
WAIT, shouldn't have said that I take that back
Look, I apologize let's Rewind this whole story like Nas
C4 just erase that track (C'MON!)
I don't care if only the track trust me
FUCK! what n***as say only God can judge me
FUCK! what n***as heard or think or even thought
Tried to fix my shortcomings I just came up short
Ya heard?