I'm trying, but still, I close my eyes
The dreaming, bringing his face to mine

Lock the door
The constant buzzing all through the night
The fighting rips me all up inside

On the floor
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray and wait
I cross out his name on the page

How long 'til this washes away?
How long 'til my body is safe?
How long 'til I walk in the light?
How long 'til this heart isn’t mine?

The rise and fall of his chest on me
I'm trying, but still, it's all I see
The violent current of energy
I hide it away and underneath

Lock the door
I shake, I promise every day to change
I cross out his name on the page
How long 'til this washes away?
How long 'til my body is safe?
How long 'til I walk in the light?
How long 'til this heart isn’t mine?

Take this wildness away
It away
It away
Ah, ah

I'm trying, but still, I close my eyes
The dreaming, bringing his face to mine

Out the door
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray to change
I cross out his name on the page

How long 'til this washes away?
How long 'til my body is safe?
How long 'til I walk in the light?

I just want him in my arms
I just want him in my arms