[CHESS]
You don't know who you are
Until you hate yourself
Until you've crashed and burned
And lost your fight
And everybody says they know better, better
And everybody says they know better
And maybe they're right

[CHESS, FARRAH]
You turn to poison pills so you can numb yourself
The refill never comes too soon
And everyone will tell you: you're better, better
They beg and cry and swear that you're better
Than you
Than you

I've climbed a million mountains
But I can't reach the top
I swear to god that any moment I can stop
So it's just a single vice to help me stay awake
I don't know how much more I can take

Before the breakdown
Before I lose my mind forever
I can't cry forever
I won't cry
Before the breakdown
Before there's nothing left but crazy
Someone try to save me
Try
[FARRAH]
Try
It's just a single vice
To get me through the day
I swear to god that I could throw it all away so!

[CHESS, FARRAH]
I'll pour the bottle out
And be myself again

[FARRAH]
That hopeless loser girl that no one understands

[CHESS, FARRAH]
No one understands
No one under-

[CHESS, FARRAH, REESE, RILEY, CAIRO, KATE, ANNLEIGH]
No one understands
Before the breakdown
Before I spiral slowly, screaming
Wake me up
I'm dreaming
Get me through the night
Before the breakdown
Before I can't breathe
Shrieking
Choking
Tell me it's a joke and
This can't be my life
And everyone will tell you: you're better, better
They beg and plead and scream that you're better, better
But you could never ever be better than you

[KATE]
Cause you're the score you got on SATs

[REESE]
A number on a scale

[CAIRO]
You are birth control

[FARRAH]
And alcohol

[ANNLEIGH]
And every test you failed

[RILEY]
You are all the teams you never made

[REESE]
And all the games you never played
[CHESS, FARRAH, REESE, RILEY]
Parents you mistreated

[CHESS, FARRAH, REESE, RILEY, CAIRO, KATE, ANNLEIGH]
And every time you were defeated

And every breakdown
Every person who forgets you
Every friend that left you
Nowhere else to go

Before the breakdown
If you keep running, you'll escape it
One day you might make it
Far away from home

And every broken bone and scar
Won't define just who you are
Someday you'll grow up just like you should
Before the breakdown breaks you for good

[CHESS]
Before the breakdown
Breaks you for good