Topaz Jones
Grass (Survivor’s Guilt)
[Verse 1]
I found love, a great distraction from checking
The evening news and staying up on what’s happening ain't it?
I'm just praying that I live past these deadlines
They trying to make some footnotes out of headlines
Is blood thicker than water when it's red wine?
Pour some more Kool-Aid, it's bedtime
Some of us woke, some of us won't
Some others choke under the pressure of the law
No investors mean to sell the closest thing they ever get
To a semester that's abroad
And the K over 9 only time they're checking for my dogs
But I'm riding still, me and my survivor's guilt
In these same shoes nobody thought that I could fill
When my folks split I was playing Dr. Phil
Blocked it out, did anything in my power not to feel
Now it's all coming back, ain't that about a bitch?
Time is money, I should spend it like it's counterfeit

[Bridge]

[Verse 2]
I found love, I think it happened
Because I wasn't so wrapped up
In acting like I'm a person who's perfect
I'm seeing people who got a whole lot on they plate
Only thing that ain't been served is a purpose
It's hot as shit in my kitchen
Promise you'd probably say to hell with it
And turn up the furnace
Apologize for my grandma, but I've been rapping better
Now I can't give no fuck how she react to my curses
I'm young enough to believe that the world's as small as this Alternative universe we all so immersed in
Dumb enough to be feeling for that same old attention
You quenching your thirst with
The true facade is to swallow the narcoleptic narcotic
Sometimes I choose not to listen, filters we use to be vintage
She wonder why so nostalgic, it's to acknowledge
That something in the future was missing
[Bridge]

[Outro]
Don't be afraid, to speak your mind
Soon you'll find, it ain't cracked up to what it's supposed to be
Don't hesitate, what use, take your time
When you find love, when you find love