Lil Bean
survivors guilt

[Intro]
Hmm, heartbreaks, hardships, never endin' pain
Hmm, hmm, hardships, heartbreaks, never endin' pain
Same story, same book, we on different pages
Careful who you hang around, energy contagious (Let the beat ride out, Ju)
Gettin' money—
Yeah, uh, yeah

[Verse 1]
Antisocial, people probably think I'm on some weird shit
Tryna take my soul, these n***as take away from my pureness
I really got survivors guilt, this shit don't feel the same
On some real shit, I be depressed, my daughter keep me sane
'Til you lose ones closest to you, you never seen pain
'Til your closest ones start to change , you never seen fame
Come from a place you catch somethin', that's how you up your rank
On these songs, I just let it out, this shit be my escape
I'm so traumatized, gunshots, all I see is murder
Only got a couple years, I'll probably retire when I'm thirty
I can handle other n***as, my fake friends make me nervous
You can tell I went to war because there's blood on my jersey
And sometimes my thoughts ahead of me, so lately I've been writin'
Keepin' shit off the 'net, that's how you dodge indictments
I can tell I'm gettin' older, certain shit don't excite me
Be careful what you say to me, we might not take it lightly
[Chorus]
Heartbreaks, hardships, never endin' pain, huh
Same story, same book, we on different pages
Careful who you hang around, energy contagious
Gettin' money n***a, better save, it might save you
How many times a n***a weather storm, it's amazing
Sound dumb, but I feel safe when it's dangerous
Survivor's guilt, but I'm still here, so I'm grateful
Survivor's guilt, but I'm still here, so I'm grateful

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I had to boss my life up and change my situation
Shit, that's why I'm workin' hard now, so I can leave it for my baby
N***as claim they be so solid, these n***as gold plated
That shit look good, but when you touch it, that shit fugazzi
I'm just stayin' true, these n***as sell they soul, this shit for real
Shoulda been had some Ms, I turned down a couple deals
Keep your head up, you better watch your surroundings over here
Tryna give you game, I'm feelin' like I'm Wallo and Gill
Had to make some sacrifices, n***as tryna win
Sometimes you lose for the greater good, just take it on the chin
I be thinkin bout CGZ, I know he livin' through my skin
That's why I'm careful everything I do, I know that n***a see it
I ain't perfect, I got flaws, but I embrace it 'cause I'm me
N***as changed, but they say they still the same, but I peep
These is Rick Owens, I been gettin' mud on my cleats
Keep your head up, n***as spillin' blood in these streets, yeah
[Chorus]
Heartbreaks, hardships, never endin' pain, huh
Same story, same book, we on different pages
Careful who you hang around, energy contagious
Gettin' money n***a, better save, it might save you
How many times a n***a weather storm, it's amazing
Sound dumb, but I feel safe when it's dangerous
Survivor's guilt, but I'm still here, so I'm grateful
Survivor's guilt, but I'm still here, so I'm grateful