Heart in My Hate
[Hook]
Questionin' myself, is it true that this the man that I have to be
It’s actually taxin' me
Cannot keep it stealth, cause I’m tryna turn my misery to masterpiece
Lemme actually craft a piece
Fuckin up my health, I’m running cause I feel like people after me
Selfish always lacked apathy
Wallow in my welts, too cowardly to climb up out the trap of me
Just let the shit keep happening
[Verse 1]
Beat me bruise me kill me fuck it know you want me dead
Go ahead who gone stop you nobody leavе me red
Leavе me out to dry you ain’t see it when I bled
Self important but that don’t make me incorrect
Questioning my character, questioning my intellect
Questioning the man I am, questions brewing in my head
Am i who I think I am, questioning the things I said
Questions gotta ask myself so I can be a better man
[Bridge]
I’m not who I think I am
I don’t think I’m who I am
I’m not who I think I am
I don’t think I’m who I am
[Verse 2]
I know my self obsession leaves me easy target
Look what I started, all these exes and ex-friends
Neatly nestled in my head, pulling on the strained strings
Reaching for the clouds just to drown in what the rain brings
Loved ones sprint far like I don’t need em
I can’t be my brothers keeper if I cannot even keep him
Is it a product of my disposition or that n***as they be sneakin'
Troubled searching for the reason
You ever a bunch of friends sit you down
And tell you what they hate about you
And that they don’t wanna be around you
I can still feel them pins in my skin
Especially when I'd a died for them kin
Lost between faults, rock and a hard place
Missouri and Michigan no home I’m displaced
Blood brewin' with rage, this regret in my face
I got hate in my heart but it’s heart in my hate
Questionin' myself, is it true that this the man that I have to be
It’s actually taxin' me
Cannot keep it stealth, cause I’m tryna turn my misery to masterpiece
Lemme actually craft a piece
Fuckin up my health, I’m running cause I feel like people after me
Selfish always lacked apathy
Wallow in my welts, too cowardly to climb up out the trap of me
Just let the shit keep happening
[Verse 1]
Beat me bruise me kill me fuck it know you want me dead
Go ahead who gone stop you nobody leavе me red
Leavе me out to dry you ain’t see it when I bled
Self important but that don’t make me incorrect
Questioning my character, questioning my intellect
Questioning the man I am, questions brewing in my head
Am i who I think I am, questioning the things I said
Questions gotta ask myself so I can be a better man
[Bridge]
I’m not who I think I am
I don’t think I’m who I am
I’m not who I think I am
I don’t think I’m who I am
[Verse 2]
I know my self obsession leaves me easy target
Look what I started, all these exes and ex-friends
Neatly nestled in my head, pulling on the strained strings
Reaching for the clouds just to drown in what the rain brings
Loved ones sprint far like I don’t need em
I can’t be my brothers keeper if I cannot even keep him
Is it a product of my disposition or that n***as they be sneakin'
Troubled searching for the reason
You ever a bunch of friends sit you down
And tell you what they hate about you
And that they don’t wanna be around you
I can still feel them pins in my skin
Especially when I'd a died for them kin
Lost between faults, rock and a hard place
Missouri and Michigan no home I’m displaced
Blood brewin' with rage, this regret in my face
I got hate in my heart but it’s heart in my hate