Ethel Cain
Black and Blue (demo)
I saw your face in my dream
I saw my life the way it’s supposed to be
But you don’t leave your house
And you don’t pick up the phone
And I don’t know what I did
To make you want to be alone
I look around just to see
If maybe you’re sneaking up behind me
But you are never there
And darling I’m so scared
You’ll forget what I had said
Breathing in the winter air
When my blood spilled on the bed
You looked at me and then you said
“Please don’t hurt yourself again”
But I can’t get you out my head
Promise me you have been true
Or I’ll leave you black and blue
I don’t know what the fuck to do
I guess that I’ll just wait for you
I saw your face in my dream
But you didn’t want to stand next to me
And I can’t erase my fear
That you are tired of being here
Cuz baby if you let me go
I won’t make it through the year
I want to starve myself again
And put the knife back to my leg
But I know that if I do
I will lose a piece of you
And I can’t take that shit again
I swore I’d never lie to you
When I woke you in the night
Because I wasn’t feeling right
You told me I would be okay
And then you said turn off the light
Promise me you have been true
Or I’ll leave you black and blue
I don’t know what the fuck to do
I guess I have to wait for you
I guess I have to wait for you