[Chorus: Illmac]
Tryna get healthy, tighten my circle, aināt no try, only do
Get in that bag, wakingā
upā
early, aināt noā
try, only do
Stick to the plan,ā
no excuses, aināt no try, only do
Aināt no try, onlyādo,āainātāno try
[Verse 1: Illmac]
Be moreāhonest, fucked aroundāand put a wall up
Clear my conscience, been in private
I was hiding, shitās been piling up
In need of guidance, God Iām stuck
Bottoms up, put the bottle down but I still got some shit thatās bottled up, thatās obvious
Everybody watching everybody, we aināt all got the same problems
Everybody feel alone, ācause everybody watching everybody else acting like they aināt got āem
I got problems too, I been out the loop, acting calm and cool
I canāt sleep, in case my dreams, turn to nightmares too, lost a few
Friends, ends, lot of my loved ones been abused, shared some fucked up truths
Changed my views, this painās for you
Lot of women that survived abuse, what they been through, changed my views, this oneās for you
You
[Pre-Chorus: Illmac]
Thought we'd be good by now, but Iāma still hold you down
Checking that bank account, hoping that check donāt bounce
Thought we'd be good by now
But Iāma still hold you down, thatās right
[Chorus: Illmac]
Love myself, put in more effort, aināt no try, only do
Try to read more, try to talk less, aināt no try, only do
Less complaining, tryna be grateful, aināt no try, only do
Aināt no try, only do, aināt no try
[Post-Chorus: Illmac]
Canāt nobody see me when Iām motivated
Know you done fucked up now right?
Canāt nobody see me when Iām motivated
Ooh you know you done fucked up now right?
[Verse 2: Illmac]
I been, chasing my purpose and that shitās eluding me
Wait, maybe, Iām just confused, maybe itās chasing me itās been pursuing me
Maybe Iām losing it, hiding from scrutiny
Cover my wounds up with all of this jewelry
Ink on my skin just to cover my nudity
Wait, you feel outta place? You speaking my language, talk to me fluently
Itās no rules, to this shit, just be you, and thatās it
Aināt too cool, to admit that
I listen to old shit and cringe
Uncomfortable in my skin
Less about things that I said, more about places I been (yeah)
Less about things that I did (woah), more about tears that were shed (yeah)
Less about feeling so cold, more about leaving my head
We were made to feel
But thatās not how weāre made to feel
Being strong means giving yourself a space to heal, real
[Pre-Chorus: Illmac]
Thought we'd be good by now, but Iāma still hold you down
Checking that bank account, hoping that check donāt bounce
Thought we'd be good by now
But Iāma still hold you down
[Chorus: Illmac]
Yeah, yeah, drink more water, check my ego, aināt no try, only do
Trying to listen, adjusting my vision, aināt no try, only do
Guard your magic, donāt let āem snatch it, aināt no try, only do
Breaking habits, thatās automatic, aināt no try, only do
Forgive yourself, nobodyās perfect, aināt no try, only do
Forgive yourself, nobodyās perfect, aināt no try, only do
Forgive yourself, nobodyās perfect, aināt no try, only do
Aināt no try, only do, aināt no try (yuh)
[Post-Chorus: Illmac]
Canāt nobody see me when Iām motivated
Know you done fucked up now right?
Canāt nobody see me when Iām motivated
Ooh you know you done fucked up now right?
Know you done fucked up now right?
Know you done fucked up now (hold up, hold up)
Canāt nobody see me when Iām motivated
Motivation