I'm deep in the cookie jar, the cookie jar is something that I've made up of all the failures of my life
All the things that I failed and I went back
I failed and I went back and finally succeeded
All the things that kicked my ass
I put them all in the cookie jar
Cause at times of hell even the hardest man


In times of suffering what we do is we forget how hard we really are
That's what suffering is, suffering is a test that's all it is
Suffering is a true test of lifе
And so that cookie jar travels in my brain so whenеver I get put in a situation where I have poopy pants
The one with me mentality of 'oh my god life sucks'
I take the 1 second decision, I step out of my life for one second go into the cookie jar pull up
'Oh motherfucker you been you were in three hell weeks and finished two
One of those hell weeks a guy died because it was so bad
Oh you are a motherfucking bad ass, you are'
I put it back into the cookie jar and I remember who the fuck I really am
I'm not the kid that was called n***a, I'm not the scared kid
This is who I am
It's a reminder of who you truly are at the core of yourself
This is who I am
But what I was saying in myself the whole time on that track
This is who I am
Self talk and visualization are the two keys to my success
I believed for that last 19 miles
I was indestructible
Because I took myself in that chair, crapping up my back, peeing blood down my leg, shin splints, stress fractures
I used all that for motivation versus negativity I used it for motivation
I said to myself who on this fucking earth would still be going right now
You are
You are
You gotta be the hardest motherfucker on the planet
Is it true? I don't give a fuck
At that time it got me to the finish line of that fucking race
I believed it, I believe it today
I believed it enough to where my body said 'he's not gonna stop'
And that's I took all the negative things I need to go to the hospital this and that
And i used it all who the hell could even get out of that chair
This is who I am
Who the hell would even think about taping stress fractures up
This is who I am
You do, you did
This is who I am
All those things I used for motivation
This is who I am
This is who I am
This is who I am
All those things I used for motivation