[Verse 1]
Maybe things would be way different if I ain't drop out
Maybe I would've been normal, just like you
Now it's all this paranoia when I hop out
Cause everybody wanna catch me slippin, wanna show that action

[Bridge]
But baby, I don't know
Is this for sure?
I drink, I smoke, but can't escape
If you ask me what I think, I say

[Chorus]
Yeah, this shit gets to me
Why do they threaten me?
Is this shit meant for me?
Is this shit meant for me?
I'm fucked up mentally
Please send some help for me
Is this shit meant for me?
Is this shit meant for me?
But shit, I gave it all to you

[Verse 2]
I watched everybody do well after they left me
And they just used me 'till they felt that they were good
Some girls told me that they loved me, but when I was all fucked up
You ain't help me, you ain't call me, shit got rough

[Bridge]
But baby, I don't know
Is this for sure?
I drink, I smoke, but can't escape
If you ask me what I think, I say

[Chorus]
Yeah, this shit gets to me
Why do they threaten me?
Is this shit meant for me?
Is this shit meant for me?
I'm fucked up mentally
Please send some help for me
Is this shit meant for me?
Is this shit meant for me?
This shit, I gave it up for good
[Verse 3]
I hear excuses way more than I hear "I love you"s
I hear more "fuck you"s than "nobody is above you"s
Every girl I tried to talk to like some normal, basic idiot
And I just gotta act like I ain't really pissed, but maybe I am
Maybe I'm pissed that I ain't on yet
And everybody in my city loves to taunt me
Like I won't beat somebody's fucking ass for throwing dirt on my name
I don't ever get no perks from my fame
Cause ever person always sees me as a meal ticket, like fuck all this shit
I'm really fucking mad that money exists
I'm really mad that everybody chose the clout and these bitches instead of helping me out
Like, do I really gotta tell you out loud?
I saw hell in 2015, and since then shit ain't changed
I got bigger, but people treat me the same
Waiting in line for all these clubs that should pay me and people think that I'm crazy, but I got self-worth
People just take it
Never understood why people gotta act like heart and love ain't important
Why these girls I meet just hurt me and bore me
All I asked for was a house for my mama, but then she died
All you said was that I'd make it here easy, but bitch you lied
Bitch, you lied

[Outro]
After that summer, I felt like I was running away from this person I'd been for so long and hid it behind all these foolish vices
I came home one night incredibly under the influence and called you
Shaking, paranoid, blacking out and hearing you call my name over and over again, panicking
Russell, Russell, Russell
"Russell? Russell?
Wake up"