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I remember when I was a teenager I used to have these dreams about this like, hotel room, and everybody in the room was so stoic unless they were angry, unless they had negative emotions to release. And, I remember at the time I was going to a homeopathic specialist who was helping me with anxiety and depression and this was right after I had made an attempt on my life and I remember she explained to me that she feels that all people are kind of like hotels where, people come and people go, and some people come into your life because they want to be there, and others come just to party or trash it, and expect you to clean it up when they leave. That metaphor of our lives being like hotels, stuck with me. And she said the reason maybe you have so many dreams of people being stoic unless they have negative emotions is because that's how you feel inside. And she said that you need to fill your hotel with people of joy and.
So I started writing these composition books about how I felt and about how I wanted to fill my hotel, my life with people who bring joy and encouragement. So that way whenever I did feel numb or I felt like I didn't deserve emotion or didn't deserve love I could go back and, even if it was about negative emotions I could at least read about my past emotions or remind myself that I am valid, and I am human. And there's just these books about my hotel life. And that became Hotel Books. And for the last six years that's all I've known. And my life is full of a lot of joy. I never meant to write songs that would make people feel sad, I just wanted to write songs where people could relate in times where their hotel feels as though they can't relate. That's all I ever wanted.

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