Hayden Calnin
Taking It Back
TAKING IT BACK LYRICS
MARIGOLDEN
VERSE 1
I’m tired of trying to take up as little room as, as possible
Tired of making myself small
Angry, like I’m at fault
Some things are meant to be
Other things are just crazy
I stopped eating because of you
Stopped believing I could do
Stopped dreaming ‘cause of you
Locked myself up in my room
Now just nightmares because of you
Eight years to open up the wound
Take back my power
Speak the truth and now
I hope you’re stuck in some boring dead end job
Working 9 to 5, wondering how the days got so long
‘Cause you made, one night take years of my life
I hope the girlfriend after me gave up on you
Hope she realised quickly that she got better things to do
‘Cause you dragged me through hell
Poured salt on the wound
Made a game out of the truth, really
Was I just a body?
CHORUS

‘Cause I’m going back
To the place you lived
Back when we were kids
I can live through this
On my own feet now

Taking it back, taking it back, taking it back

Going back
To the place you lived
Back when we were kids
I can live through this
I’ve gotten this far somehow

VERSE 2

And still now, I feel like a shell
Like I’ll crack if you touch me
Like my eyes are a time capsule and my memory the key
I’m angry and I’m scared
Take a long time to trust
Even longer to love but
Still, I love and maybe
If it were just once I could handle it better
Maybe if it were just once I’d go out no matter the weather
But I’ve been tricked and I’ve been tortured
Like a pestle and mortar
Grinding my bones into dust
And tossing me out into the water
Am I sick, or just tired
Of fighting fire with fire
Like if I could control the pain maybe the burden would be lighter
I’m a fighter, some days
And I cry some days
I love life some days
And I wanna die some days, and that
Doesn’t make me weak ‘cause that’s the truth and it’s courageous
To embrace the contradictions and live life full and shamelessly and
Fuck it, I will live
Fuck it, I will live
CHORUS

I’m going back
To the place you lived
Back when we were kids
I can live through this
On my own feet now

Taking it back, taking it back, taking it back

Going back
To the place you lived
Back when we were kids
I can live through this
I’ve gotten this far somehow

OUTRO

Taking it back, taking it back, taking it back

Taking it back, taking it back, taking it back

(spoken) Give and take, lost and found, but I’m not lost anymore