Wish I had a heart break
Wish I had a reason to freak
Not this flailing numbness
Or a reason not to even speak

But when someone who you didn’t really love
Was oh so shocked when you told them the above
Mind your sober head was talking to itself
That you're scared and stupid, gross and weird
That you're so so worthless cos of all the things you did
And you know its half right, you realise that they were kinda right

What you feel and what you want are the opposite

Wish I had a boyfriend
Wish my best friend loved me
Not this vapid kinda friendship
We’re so sick of pretending

But when someone who you really fucking love
Was oh so shocked when you told them the above
And your buckfast head was talking to itself that you're scared and stupid, gross and weird
That you're oh so worthless cos all the things you said
And you know its half right you realise that she was kinda right

What you feel and what you want are the opposite