Yeah like
I don’t-I don’t know who I wanna be
Ya know
I don’t know if I wanna be alive
I don’t know if I wanna be dead
I don’t even know if I wanna fall in love
Cause like
I been hurt so fucking much
That my mind warped in a sense
Where it’s like
I don’t know if I can ever be loved
I can love myself
I could try
But would anybody (???) like fucking love me for me?
Cuz I don’t think they will
I really don’t
Like
I had somebody
She was sorta like my drug
I was addicted to her
I couldn’t get enough of her
But when she left I went crazy
I thought about suicide
I felt alone
I don’t think I could ever love somebody the same
I don’t think I could ever be loved
That’s just me being honest
I just don’t know
I really just don’t know

Like
Will I ever be loved?
I just... want that security ya know?
I’m tired
Tired of thinking about suicide
I just- I don’t know
Like
I’m going crazy
I know that
I fuck up
But I love you more than I could ever love myself
I don’t know
I don’t know how I should think
To be real with you
I don’t even wanna be alive
I put up a false wall of hope and security when I’m alone
Ya know, I don’t know
I just want to be loved
I just don’t think I could
I love you
And that’s all I really wanted you to know
When I’m gone please just know that I love you and I love everybody
But I just never felt the same love being received, ya know
Remember me