My conflicted being, body and blood
I try and fake with earnest, it's never good enough
What is this I'm seeing?
Happiness for those who dare to take charge
Hate becomes a fuel

Fear can't kill you, but the spiteful thoughts are never-ending
Jealousy is the underlying cause

Pathetic attempts to deny a truth that's always been known
Fighting won't get anywhere
You've been down there, you know that road
Choice is not in your hands

"This is the age of sin
Revel in thе annihilation of man
Plot designs of death
Destroy thе image of God"

I am not this, it's just churning thoughts and sleepless nights
Desiring for an end to the fear
Fear is creeping in
Tragic shell a reminder of who I used to be

This fear is creeping in
Manifesting far too soon
For the lives of the martyrs to my ends
For the time I would have spent, I tried so hard
I am not this, it's just churning thoughts and sleepless nights
Desiring for an end to the fear
Fear is creeping in
A fucking reminder of what I hoped to be

Vision distorted
Hatred reflected