All throughout my life I felt something very peculiar
That I couldn't quite put my finger on
There was a hunch, there was crawling on my spine
Up to my brain, up inside
And I knew one day, someday I'd figure out just what it was
You see, my problem is that I'm deep in love with my sadness
And the way it dances
And the way it dances
And the way it dances

They say inside of theraphy
That if we drown ourselves in misery
Well,
It might just be time to get out
So they give us pills and perscriptive addictions
To itch out our dirty, dirty afflictions

For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin to the sharks of the deep dark ocean
For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin to the sharks of the ocean

It's on nights like these that I drive with no destination
And no hesitation
I could cliff it with no resignation
I remember the time when there was acid in my mouth
And my mother would hold me, her red nails curling, I thought how she loved me
What safety
But there is something that happens, a stillness up towards me
Lodging dynamite and the fire that was twinkling
No breath in the morning
I've watched every bee pass with no polination, I don't want them, I'm careful
Unstable
Disabled
Enabled
She's fluxing and gold
She's world domination
Her hand is my saviour
She takes me through angels
The bright light will find you
When you least expect it
Suck you up into the vortex of where the hell am I expected

For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin to the sharks of the deep dark ocean
For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin to the sharks of the deep dark ocean

I am old already
With a youthful gaze that seems foolish
He who is the fool knows not, oh yes
I am foolish
But wherever the wind goes, may it blow me back to her
To my mother of shadows
When no one was listening

I heard every word that she never was saying
I heard every word that she never was saying
I heard every word that she never was saying
I heard every word, every word, every word, every word...