All throughout my life I've felt
something very peculiar
That I couldn’t quite put my finger on
There was a hunch, that was growing on my spine
Up to my brain, up inside
And I knew one day, someday, I’d figure out just what it was
You see, my problem is that I’m deep in love with my sadness
And the way it dances
And the way it dances
And the way it dances

They say inside of therapy
That if we drown ourselves in misery
Well,
It might just be time to get out, so
They give us pills and prescriptive addictions
To itch out our dirty, dirty afflictions

[Chorus]
For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin
to the sharks of the deep dark ocean
For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin to the sharks of
the ocean
It’s on nights like these that I drive with no destination
And no hesitation
I could cliff it with no resignation
I remember a time when there was acid in my mouth
And my mother would hold me, her red nails curling,
I thought how she loved me
What safety
But there is something that happens, all stillness up towards me
Lodging dynamite and a fire that was twinkling
No breath in the mourning
I’ve watched every bee pass with no pollination,
I don’t want them, I’m careful
Unstable
Disabled
Enabled

She’s fluxing in gold
She’s world domination
Her hand is my savior
She takes me through angels
The bright light will find you
When you least expect it
Suck you up into the vortex of
where the hell am I, expect it

[Chorus]
For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin
to the sharks of the deep dark ocean
For it I would die a million deaths
For it I would give a million breaths
For it I would sell the meat of my skin
to the sharks of the deep dark ocean

I am old already
With a youthful gaze that seems foolish
He who is the fool knows not, oh yes
I am foolish
But wherever the wind goes, may it blow me back to her
To my mother of shadows
When no one was listening
I heard every word that she never was saying
I heard every word that she never was saying
I heard every word that she never was saying
I heard every word
I heard every word
I heard every word
I heard every word