Used to wonder how you got along with me
I used to wonder who called so loud
I used to wonder what was wrong with me
For always leaving left you alone

Used to wonder how you got along with me
I used to wonder who called so loud
I used to wonder what was wrong with me
For always leaving, for all my hatred

The further I was
The closer you'd be
The person I was
Was callow and mean
The closer I was
The further you'd be
The person I loved
Cared less about me

Pushing harder than I ever thought I would
Going back on all I thought I was
Pushing harder than I thought I would
Pissing in exile callow and mean

It's taking longer than I ever thought it would
Going back on all I thought I was
Pushing harder than I thought I would
Leaving the sky behind, closing the red door
The further I was
The closer you'd be
The person I was
Was callow and mean
The closer I was
The further you'd be
The person I loved
Cared less about me
The further I was
The closer you'd be
The person I was
Was callow and mean
The closer I was
The further you'd be
The person I loved
Cared less about me

Told you I wasn't in love with all of it
Told you I could never crawl so far
I've always loved you more than anything
Dig into me, yeah, dig into me

The further I was
The closer you'd be
The person I was
Was callow and mean
The closer I was
The further you'd be
The person I loved
Cared less about me
The further I was
The closer you'd be
The person I was
Was callow and mean
The closer I was
The further you'd be
The person I loved
Cared less about me