Kieran the Light
Looking Back
[Verse 1]
I ain't been gettin' no rest
Because I been keepin' all this on my chest
All of these rappers that say they're the best
Done sold out, so I'm not that impressed
I could admit that I'm already blessed
Even when I'm so deep in distress
I could admit that I'm not at my best
When I battle the desires of flesh, yes
I feel like I settled for temporary
Just 'cause I needed fastin', don't ever last
I feel like I'm still so affected
By all of these things in my past, it's makin' me crash
I wipe it away like a doormat
Not sellin' my soul for more cash
As a kid, I used to ignore class
To deliver these bars like Doordash
I had bent on a purpose, yeah
Even when I was stuck on them females
I was blinded, so I couldn't see well
Now I'm gettin' forward like emails
I don't do it for fame!
But I ain't gon' lie, could use it for all of these messages God has been usin' me for
That's the only reason that I'm doin' it for
Hold up, wait, I gotta switch it up
The old me, I had to give it up
I'm on a new wave, I'm like giddy-up
When I ride the beats soon as it come on, I'm like "Time to eat"
I'm in wolves' clothing, but know I am the sheep
Whole rap game is now obsolete, I got God in me!
[Chorus]
When I ignore the vision, all I do is push it back (Push it back)
I treat the studio like kitchens, I be cookin' fast (I ain't cookin'!)
When them demons took my heart, I came and took it back (I done took it back!)
I done got so far that I ain't never lookin' back (No, I can't!)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back (I ain't lookin' back!)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back (I ain't lookin' back)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back (I can't look back)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back

[Verse 2]
'Cause I gotta retrieve the blessings
The flow is a gift, so I'm goin' in like C-sections
No matter what type of delivery
I gotta bring in the Holy Ghost
When I get on the beat, it's an overdose
Any track that I get on is comatose
I'm a sickness, man, I need to blow my nose, it's nasty
Yes, I'm aware that the devil behind me, but ain't gettin' past me
So many people that's watchin' me elevate now try to trash me
Or bash me, oh well, haha
All of my enemies checkin' out, feel like I work at a hotel
So much shade comin' out they mouth
I catch everything, I'm like Odell
I used to not believe, now I never doubt
Every bar I spit God has wrote, tell
'Cause it's God-written, yeah
Otherwise, it don't really matter
They don't even know if I'm a Christian rapper
Every song I drop fit into every pattern
Who y'all know that's spittin' lyrics on the same wave?
All the music I keep hearin' be the same thing
When I come with that holy flow, you know that thing bang
But they can't say the same, 'cause they ain't in the same lane
[Chorus]
When I ignore the vision, all I do is push it back (Push it back)
I treat the studio like kitchens, I be cookin' fast (I ain't cookin'!)
When them demons took my heart, I came and took it back (I done took it back!)
I done got so far that I ain't never lookin' back (No, I can't!)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back (I ain't lookin' back!)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back (I ain't lookin' back)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back (I can't look back)
I ain't lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin', lookin' back

[Outro]
Swayzee do my space, see, all that face it wit' that faith