[lyrics]:

Verse 1 (Zach Boucher):
I don't mean to get violent, I resign it
I was used to keeping it silent, call me Violet
This one I keep inside, but I couldn't hide it
Though, I'll be fine if only I could be divided, feel like a hybrid
Inside I was broke, never had a fix
So into my mind I would choke, wish I never did
I say I'll be fine, but I know since I was a kid
I would always lie to myself, I could never win
Just another face in the crowd, tryna fit in
Always tend to get this hate to push down we were never different
I was never really safe all around, who would listen
And I wish that I could change for you now, but I didn't
I was in it to better myself, I never thought I'd be lost in the process
I knew I needed your help, you're all I've got, this is not just an option, it's a promise

Chorus (SailorUrLove & Zach Boucher):
I've never been so lost in my own mind, something's going on with me
I feel it in my soul, feel it in my bones, I thought I hid it well, but I'm breaking, I can't tell, I don't know what's become of me
I haven't been myself, I feel like someone else, is there something wrong with me
No, I haven't been myself, I feel like someone else, I need help
I've tried to escape from this hell
How could they not see that I haven't been myself
Look, this is not me, just too afraid to be helped
I'm just exhausted, always lost within my doubts
I wish I could stop pretending to
Be someone else, I'm not myself
So lost in my own mind that I need help

Verse 2 (Zach Boucher):
I gotta get a grip 'cause I know I never did
Always in my head so much thinking you were innocent
Showing me a way to core, I don't know if this is it
Just to get away and try to change into a different kid
So I need to a heal or live with this being real
I'm slowly becoming numb, don't even know what to feel
I've thought about giving up, I'm using that as a shield
I'm not even sure what I wanted to keep sealed
In the end always tried to escape from me
With no friends, I pretended what they could see
Felt condemned 'cause of them for this vacancy
I did it all to myself and it's breaking me
I hate that we had suffered 'cause I had been selfish
Lost in my thoughts again and couldn't help it
Guess I was over obsessed, a little depressed
'Cause honestly I've never felt this

Chorus (SailorUrLove & Zach Boucher):
I've never been so lost in my own mind, something's going on with me
I feel it in my soul, feel it in my bones, I thought I hid it well, but I'm breaking, I can't tell, I don't know what's become of me
I haven't been myself, I feel like someone else, is there something wrong with me
No, I haven't been myself, I feel like someone else, I need help
I've tried to escape from this hell
How could they not see that I haven't been myself
Look, this is not me, just too afraid to be helped
I'm just exhausted, always lost within my doubts
I wish I could stop pretending to escape from this hell
Be someone else, I'm not myself
So lost in my own mind that I need help