This is all that I'm worth now that it's over
One single speech
Of words that did not reach you
Before I gave myself away

To a kind of indecision
That digs and digs and digs until I forget
And then I go on and relive past experience
Until it's bundled up somewhere comfortable and warm

A shelter from the winter
A shelter from all that it wrought
A shelter from pain
A shelter from the light that I have now forgot

So I looked inside and I found its home and I tried to fix the wound
But the little fucker was clever and it wouldn't be gone that soon
For a while there, I thought it cleared with a smile upon my face
Now that months have past and I've sunken back I know it's here to stay
Well I said to you that our times are through, and we're going back to normal
But this shit isn't normal and I should've known that I'm not prepared
It'll never be the same, and it'll never be that way
And I'm always going to remember the day I figured out I was scared

It was dark back then
Of course it was
I followed through
And all for naught
And look at me
I'm withering
And falling in
And left alone
To see myself
An emptiness
A broken heart
A passion missed
A torn apart
A nothingness
And all along
A spirit gone
And what looks better now to me
Than to continue on this hopelessly
As I retread my steps into my past
And fall into you as we collapse
I hold real close that memory
The only thing that I can clearly see
But you can move forward at last
Marching forward, marching fast

I take a few deep breaths
And get up off the ground
But I stumble
This is not the option I chose to take

If I had known it'd lead me here
You know I would've called you near
And found another alternative
But I did not, and now I know I am broke
Thought it was only for the moment
But I gotta say I'm hopeless and I know it
And you keep on reminding me
Of what it is, of how much

Do you remember when we had a brightness then?
We used to talk all the time on the same level then
Did you forget the way we saw it face to face?
On no uncommon ground, we saw it face to face
And can you recall the way it brought us joy?
Just to know that we'd be doing it again
And does it bother you to know that's never coming back again?
Like it bothers me
Does it bother you like it bothers me?
Because it bothers me
To admit

Okay the jig is up, and this is it
And now that I have suffered this
I can never go back again
I wanna go back again
But the bond is gone, the time is lost
And I'm feeling like this is all
Regression, alone again
Into the great unknown again

The spirit's gone, the spirit's gone
And I cannot keep pressing on
Forces me to accept what I
Do not want to accept but the
Spirit's gone, the spirit's gone
And I cannot keep pressing on
Forces me to accept what I
Do not want to accept, spirit

Just look at what I'm saying now, I've seen the truth, and I've figured out
A way to be upfront and honest with the kind of things I've lived without
For however long I led a life that was stable and secure
A kind of shy existence that was gentle and demure
But if I look back I can safely say that I liked it more that way
Even in three years time I know I'll never see the day
When I can look at where I'm at and feel like I'm at my peak
Because I've already hit the peak and it's all downhill from here
Well, I know that I look back and laugh, but you'd best believe that I'd take it back
Than to stay in that position so many years after it crashed
And I can't say that I blame you for trying to lift me on my feet
But if you can't tell, well I've bowed my head to already accept defeat
And it's dark right now
Of course it is
I follow through
But all for naught
And look at me
I'm withering
And falling in
And left alone
To see myself
An emptiness
A broken heart
A passion missed
A torn apart
A nothingness
And all along
A spirit gone

And what looks better now to me
Than to continue on this hopelessly
As I retread my steps into my past
And fall into you as we collapse
I hold real close that memory
The only thing that I can clearly see
But you can move forward at last
Marching forward, while my spirit is gone

Buried in the dirt like I've never been before
Man, is this pathetic or what? Yeah, okay
Well, I admit this is only resolution for myself
As I crawl into the empty space where my spirit is gone