[Verse 1:]
It feels deceitful when I ask you for help
I've been sustaining on illusion and disgust at myself
If I can carry on now, within this hole that I sleep in
You know I'm walking in circles, without the hope to believe in
And I've got nothing else to talk about now
I wish that I could say that you would figure this out
But if you've got some ideas then you've been smarter than me
'Cause I'm not seeing any meaning or any chance to be free
[Chorus:]
So I beg for your forgiveness if I've been letting you down
Just understand that nothing I can do will turn this around
I want to prove that I'm true, I want to prove what I'm worth
But I've spent so much time just searching and just digging the dirt
[Verse 2:]
It hurts regretting what I wished I had said
I have played the scenes over and over in my head
But it's a trick I play on myself as if I can go back
I know it's nothing but it still feels sad
Everything that I do just turns to nothing
And now I'm thinking that that nothing might just turn into something
Once I've made my way back to all that I used to love
After it's over, after it's over
[Chorus:]
So I beg for your forgiveness if I've been letting you down
Just understand that nothing I can do will turn this around
I want to prove that I'm true, I want to prove what I'm worth
But I've spent so much time just searching and just digging the dirt
[Outro:]
And you might not believe me now
But I really do mean it
I love you
I love you all