I got some things make me uncomfortable, yeah
I got some things I dont bring up at all
Would you help me if you seen me fall?
Or would you laugh and not help me at all, yeah
I've done some things that I ain't proud of either
My lifes a movie in a lonely theater, wait
Where you goin huh?
Why you tryna leave?
Oh you dont like me cause these things that I'm about to speak
Yeah I'm a christian but that doesnt mean I go and pray
Go away
Feelings that I'm feeling never go away
And it's my fault see I'm quick to blame
You say you wanna change
But you dont try to change
Tell me it ain't that easy
Like you ain't tried it James
Oh but I really did
I use to laugh now it's rare to catch me crack a grin
I know some things that you ain't ready for, yeah
I know some things that might upset you more
Say you want love if it ain't me then what you lookin for?
It's me you claim but on socials you say you never date
So we go back and fourth
But I dont waste my time
You see I'm quick to end it
If you dont like that maybe this shit ain't yo fuckin heaven
I packed my bag up
I ain't comin back home
I ain't bouta act grown
I just know I have grown
To any people out there though
I Apologize if I made you cry
See I've done some things that i ain't proud to say i did
But if you ask me ima always admit
Tell you why I did it not no sorry and shit
I ghosted lotta fuckin people and that's hard to admit
I dont need no one to call me son
It's been 18 years I'm doin just fine without one
Dad texted, told me that he hope i see it
He said sorry about everything i dont believe it
Dont you ever call me son
You missed out on you and me
18 years ago was that opportunity yeah
You ain't seen my first breath
You won't see my last breath
You the one that left me me and that's a fact check
You dont get it yet
Maybe you should listen in
I lost my mind when I started dippin lips in gin
Dont think you know me cause you dont
See I'm afraid of death
But I'm still tryna find it
18 already have regrets
So I won't stay in silence
I gotta be myself
Even if that's meanin gettin violent
Yall dont like my tone
But I won't ever change it
You try to force it though
I might get fuckin dangerous
I dont like being told
That I should change lyrics I wrote
This is my drive on a one lane road, yeah
So heres a highfive to family but let me go
And I'm sorry I dont really rarely pick up phones
I prefer talking in person just the way I grown
If you dont like it that's okay see I respect you too
But this my island rules, dont think I'm inviting you
And its crazy all my life I just wanted to rap
But nowadays all I do is just throw it in trash
Make a good song here and there but I ain't playin it back
I dont think that I'm that great
How can I be he-ro when I'm needing saved
I ain't trusting people that dont know my name
See I ain't do this music thing for fame
I could die without it and be happy James
A real rapper once said dont waste money on my grave
Put my ashes in a trash bag, I dont care where they go
Just as long as they know
Real music all I did was stay woke