How you feel James
I don't know man
No I think you do
You just dont know the words
Well if I really dont know why am I writing a verse?
Thought I was crazy and they gave me a nurse
Which led to medication then my body started aching I dont think I should be takin these pills that they keep on makin
But they ones that went and diagnosed me
Now I'm stuck inside a trance I don't think I can leave
Sure I gotta pill addiction but it's not what you think
So maybe before comin to me you should stop and rethink
Yall gave me therapy for what?
Just because I was me?
Remember yall thе ones that went and turned mе into a fiend
And now its every night that I struggle to sleep
And I admit it's really not as fuckin bad as you think
But it's the reason late nights there was blood in the sink

Maybe just before you judge me you should look in the mirror
That's the only person deep down really you fear
And before you say you happy you can fake the appear
Then the moment you alone everything dissapear
Cause the true feel of happiness youd never be near
Quit actin like Corona was destroying yo year
Everything is on the media yo life ain't rare
I ain't ever once thought itd be it right here
Go ahead now listen you can pull up a chair
I get many dark thoughts when these demons appear
See they tried to call me crazy I don't think that I am
Just because i thought
I was talkin to God
And now I'm sittin in a city without any applause
You unhealthy? Check
I dont need yo ass to like me I got self respect
Boost confidence boy that's the cause-effect
Scene bloody let the gauze eject
Let the gods see me like the farthest jet
And off we set an awfully bet that's dark as death
I'm unphased even caution left
I guess I might be crazy like a junior slim shady but that dont mean that he made me
Now what I gotta do to go ahead and get it through to you
You wanna start some beef you dont know what I would do to you
All black funeral
Tears look beautiful
Me I'm with the big league
You're more with a cubicle
Me I'm like a crucible
Youd have to compete to be an emcee
And even that scene would not complete the
Ending of the book youd have to reread
Cause every time you listen to things that I speak
They go over yo head like gigs at high speed
You didn't get that? The gig was my key
Overdose twice with things that I need
What would save my life I guess an I-V
But I dont trust nobody that isssnt like me
Listen I think
This isnt likely depicting nice things
What can I say I guess I'm that clean
But still rap nasty
My flow is half mean
The other half is actually not ordinary
I ain't have no father figure maybe that my father figured he would never figure as a father figure
Ion got no girl in my life right now
And I'm livin just fine I could die right now
Put a pen to a page and I might write down
Ill thoughts but they'll try to put my ass in a white night gown
So how you doin James
Man you dont know
Almost died two times but I cannot fold
I been crossed so much like its tic tac toe
You ain't ever felt pain til yo friend gets smoked
I was fighting for my life yeah I been through that
Witnessed friends get killed cause they skin too black
This is my pain turned sideways I sinned through that
Drunk liquor til I couldn't taste the gin like that
So how you doin James
Man I'll get through the day