​tarnished (VERY EMOTIONAL & TRUTHFUL)

[Verse]
Heart filled with sorrow, heart filled with pain
Where the fuck was n***as at when I was in the rain?
I ain't got much to lose, but I got a lot to gain
Me and cuz' used to be starving, so we went and hit them stains
N***as be claiming they know me, don't even know my name
Bitches be claiming they for me, swear that shit so lame
Got that stick in my lap, n***a would of thought I was playing a game
Posted outside your crib, masked up, bitch, I feel like Kane
I pop Perkys to ease my mind, sometimes I be going insane
My fam turned thеy back on me, I'm like how you go against the grain
Shit just ain't thе same
Lost my bro, broke my heart when I seen him in chains