[Verse]
This is exactly what I wanted
All my fans love me, dad is proud of me
Mama cries for me
'Cause she know there ain't sleep in my schedule
Having nightmares that I'm the black Heath Ledger
Sleep when I'm dead, these voices in my head
Got me waking up at 4 just so I can write instead
And my friends come and ask me if it's worth it
I tell them that "It better be, I did this shit on purpose!"
The worst is being worthless, now a n***a priceless
Bloomingdale's coat, I don't have to check the prices
But I only go to feel a sense of control
'Cause I get this shit for free if I wear promotional
And I'm not emotional when I do my work
I get emotional when I order that dessert
'Cause she always ate dessert
And I deserted her
But I refuse to compromise career for a girl
'Cause this music and this writing and this acting is my soul
And if I let it go, there'd be no one left to know
Being happy is the goal, but greatness is my vision
And all these girls are thinking they compete with my ambition
But, baby, I am different
This shit is my life
And if you don't believe me, you can never be my wife
I'm walking in this darkness and I'm tryna find a light
And I'd rather die than be average and chances are I might, because
[Outro]
Things are changing, my life's gone pecans
Thirteen cities in the last eight weekends
All I know is: Baby, I'm so tired
Record on Monday, tape on Tuesday
I ain't slowing down, I don't care what you say
Fuck this health thing, mama I'm alright