[Verse 1]
Most of what I did in life came from a place of love
Long before I had understanding of what a hater was
Took some hits, glad I went through it ‘cause that’s the way you learn
Funny how those mentalities change up when the tables turn
Said they ridin’ with ya, but they treat you like a crash dummy
Said they ridin’ with ya, but ain’t pitchin’ in no gas money
Rappin’ in the school bathrooms, knew I was meant for this
Never forget the ones who was laughin’ and wasn’t interested
Same ones, now when I come across ‘em, they fans now
Same ones asking for pictures, shaking my hands now
What if I’da forsaken my notebook, man, and put it up
What if I’da listened when they told me I wasn’t good enough
Every now and then inside my mind, AC Chill appears
Always wonder what would he be doing if he still was here
Probably would be still killing mics and having fun
Guess it’s better losing a homie than never having one
[Hook]
So when I think of all I went through
And then I think of all I been through
I use it to make me better and then grew
Now I know each and every part I was meant to, meant to
[Verse 2]
A lot of trauma from the distant past oppressed in my internal
Thinkin’ of the pain inflicted got me heated like a thermal
Spending everyday silently tryna heal from all the wars
They ain’t got enough bandaids to cover all the scars
Used to talk to chicks and not get told the right digits
I’ve been taken advantage of and walked over like bridges
It took me a minute to properly read the procedure
That when people no longer can bleed ya, they no longer need ya
I still check myself and thank god whenever it’s hard
I know how it feels to be hungry but never to starve
You gotta study everybody and have thick outer skin
I discovered that even losers can teach you how to win
It’s tough to think about the bread I let myself run through
Looking for ways to blame others for my own dumb moves
It’s no one formula, it’s many reasons why you can fail
Not being honest with yourself the biggest lie you can tell
[Hook]
So when I think of all I went through
And then I think of all I been through
I use it to make me better and then grew
Now I know each and every part I was meant to, meant to
[Verse 3]
What you did in the past doesn’t have to be your life’s definition
When I look at people, I see them and not their condition
Stop telling people to let it go just ‘cause it’s old
It’s easy to clean the body, tough to clean out the soul
Might be dealing with things that happened to ‘em at a young age
Problems from back in the days resurface in other ways
Then we misunderstand that person’s sadness or rage
‘cause we don’t know the history of how they got to that stage
Don’t just look at what you think you see, the root of it’s bigger
Any reactions people give off have a reason to trigger
You might not have been the one to cause that person’s pain
But since you right there at the moment, you’re the one that gets blamed
Understand prior circumstances that they went through
And recognize that they had a past before they met you
And not all of the hurt affects you but the rest of it does
Took me a while to realize how sick and messed up I was
[Hook]
So when I think of all I went through
And then I think of all I been through
I use it to make me better and then grew
Now I know each and every part I was meant to, meant to
