idek if i want to

So long
Wanting to want
To want to want
Something good

All along
I think I've wanted
To want to want
Something I should

And it’s fine
If we don’t align
Because I’m finally
Changing my childish mind

I think I think
I’m starting to think
That something good
Should be mine

And I try to be gentle
With my state, it's mental
Try to change
I’m not static
But damn, it feels like I’m well on my way
Self-aware but I’m changing
Unblock your number, saying
“I don’t want to want to want you anymore
But there’s something keeping me from closing that door”

(The fuck is that final chord? I don't know!)