machine/animal

When the anger’s dangerously low
And I start to feel the fondness grow
I live in that moment
Pretend someday I’ll hold you again

Your collision course crushed the machine in me
You knew what I was in for, you didn’t have the guts to leave
I pray that I made you hate me enough to just leave me be

Always crying out to you and it’s not fair
I get to talk my shit, my side always prevails
I miss the animal of you beneath the sickness and the lies
And I’m grateful for my wounds
Something to remember you by

I keep them open
The animal of me
Is still hoping
I keep them open
The animal of me
Is still hoping