808 Cowboy

[Chorus]
I've been laying awake all night, tryna figure out what's in my head
Always feel like I'm better off dead, I know it hurts, won't waste your time
With all the things I should've said, I'm always wrong but I'm never right
Think I'm numb, won't look at my eyes, think I'm dying, I'll bury my pride

Cause I've been falling off the edge
With all the things that I should've said
But shit, it looks like I'll just hide again, fuck that, I'm not trying again
I'm losing my fucking mind, I'm too anxious to be lied again

[Verse]
I've been up chilling with the Devilish thoughts
In my brain, I ride with my pain, I hate it
Pussy talk shit, I cock back, aim
Got the cowboy beat but the 808 bang

I'm dying on the inside
So, when I flex, it don't feel right
Got a brand-new coupe that I still hidе
Get the thoughts in my head еvery damn night

I've been running out of options way too quick
Now I kinda just wish that I'd slit my wrists, self-validation
I can take that shit, how I'd wish I die
I'm losing my patience, ask God, "Why?"
Crash my heart, going insane
I think it's bout time, I'm falling apart at the seams
Hiding up in my dreams
You know I had to get this shit by any means

[Pre-Chorus]
Going through the fucking 'motions
Grief gon make me down a potion
Off the pills, can never focus, I've been

I've been going through the fucking 'motions
Grief gon make me down a potion
Off the pills, can never focus

[Chorus]
I've been laying awake all night, tryna figure out what's in my head
Always feel like I'm better off dead, I know it hurts, won't waste your time
With all the things I should've said, I'm always wrong but I'm never right
Think I'm numb, won't look at my eyes, think I'm dying, I'll bury my pride

Cause I've been falling off the edge
With all the things that I should've said
But shit, it looks like I'll just hide again, fuck that, I'm not trying again
I'm losing my fucking mind, I'm too anxious to be lied again