[Verse 1]
This is real life in art form
Why you think I’m moving so smart for
I got two tens no dart board
Complexion looking like cardboard
If you wasn’t here from the start, don’t come around playing your part
No I am not taking part
I just ghost off in the dark like skrt (skrt, skrt)
You need to stay in your row
I stick to the people I know
I wish I did this before
They were having the paint of my soul
I’m smiling so you never know
How I really feel at a show
It’s better if you didn’t know
No this can’t be
Don’t need you round me
Just because we’re blood does not mean we are family
I don’t know ya, so I don’t owe ya
Man fuck how you feel, fuck bipolar
[Chorus]
If everybody knows me
Then why am I so lonely
I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it
I wanna be alone, complain when I’m alone
But I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it like
Introverted, [?] turning back to my old ways
I’m not used to this, no I’m still learning
I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it like
[Verse 2]
I know I ain’t right
I’m too left
I swear I can’t align
Nah I don’t care, cause this is me though
It is what it is though
I know I am miserable, I just do not like your energy bro
I think they found out where I live
I’ll take a chance on the hit
I just made a will for my kids
Cause we’re going up in the biz
And you’re not in my plans
I took a different path
I got the world in my hands, and it’s all part of the plan
[Chorus]
If everybody knows me
Then why am I so lonely
I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it
I wanna be alone, complain when I’m alone
But I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it like
Introverted, [?] turning back to my old ways
I’m not used to this, no I’m still learning
I said I want it, I said I want it, I s-said-
[Bridge]
I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it like
If everybody know me, I s-, know me, I s-, know me, I s-, know me
If everybody, I said I want it, I said I want it, I said I want it, I said-
If everybody know me, I s-, know me, I s-, know me
If everybody, I said I want it, I said I want it, I said-
[Verse 3]
Yeah
I remember when my father died
I never knew him though, I was probably nine
There was no tears in my mommy’s eyes
What if when you die is when you come alive
Wishing I could never feel the vibe
It hit me later on I was traumatized
Why didn’t he wanna be in my life
That’s why I always say fuck him for life
My mom had two kids with another man
That’s my sister and my brother man
I was part of another clan
Until I was a man, I didn’t understand
I was confused when I called him dad
So I started to call him that
He really was the father that I never had
And plus he calls me son, I guess he ain’t that bad (No, no, no)
I remember when I signed my deal
All this money, it felt like a mil
I blew it all, I couldn’t buy a meal
I’m going back, I’m now always uphill
Looking back at when my daughter arrived prolly couldn’t been a worse time
That no money in the past time
I wanna put my life in reverse time
Yeah that’s why I feel so connected to it
Fuck this verse..
You think you know me, that I'm the same as you
I deal with things different, same as you
You think you know me, you think you know me
But I ain’t the same as you no, no