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Intro
[Verse]
Remember growing up, I never had no clue at all
Nanny always told me to be good in school
I did my best and always tried to follow rules
Until that day I idolised the hood and stupid fools
Yeah, you see, life's what you make it, bro
And haters do their best to try and take it though
Be real to yourself and never fake it though
This life's a journey, trust me and be patient though
But I've always felt this evil within
This pain that I can't explain's like the evilest sin
And ever since a younger man, I tried keeping it in
I'd love to tell you why, but I don't know where to begin, to begin
I was always scared of a class speech
My stutter meant Biggy really can't speak (Can't speak)
I told my teacher I'm ill, my heart's weak
She told me that, "You told me that excuse last week" (Last week)
But can you really blame me, miss? (Can you?)
My parents did their best to try and raise the kid
But really, man, I should say tame the kid
'Cause in this jungle, I'm the lion, trust me, there's no taming this
I got a mother that I really don't see
She's trying to change me to somebody that I just won't be
But it's different with my daddy 'cause he does phone me
But deep down, I miss you, mum, and I feel lonely, lonely
So what happened? We were so close
And now you got me feeling like some sort of ghost
It's not a competition who hurts the most
Just know, deep down I miss you and your Sunday roast (I miss you)
I can't lie, I really miss our big cuddles
Every time that we always had to struggle
Two jobs was a late night hustle
But you magicked up some money when really, we're just Muggles
But I'm done, God knows I'm living it up
I've had enough of chasing you, man, your time is up
Fuck you and fuck you 'til that dick gets you love
Like a prozzy that's retired, I ain't giving a fuck
I've tried chasing for years, being awaken with fear
Been alone up in my home and tried holding back tears
So close to the edge, I lost so many peers
Imagine what it's like when mum don't care how you feel
But I get it, huh, huh, this shit is pathetic
When your arms reach, but this arm feels prosthetic
I left home to grow and you just couldn't get it
Anywhere I go, control, I'm Niko Bellic
I need more credit, release these pellets to seize them relics
Here's your da puta, let the chico tell it
Huh, I don't really care where you from
All eyes on Heath like I'm 2Pac's son
See my dad in the dark and he relied on his son
I spray facts like a gat, I ain't firing a gun, uh