Of course, the separate observerâthe thinker of the thoughtsâis an abstraction which we create out of memory. We think of the selfâthe ego, ratherâas a repository of memories; a kind of safety deposit box, or record, or filing cabinet place, where all our experiences are stored. Now, thatâs not a very good idea. Itâs more that memory is a dynamic system, not a storage system. Itâs a repitition of rhythms, and these rhythms are all part and parcel of the ongoing flow of present experience. In other words, first of all, how do you distinguish between something known now, and a memory? Actually, you donât know anything at all until you remember it. Because if something happens that is purely instantaneousâif a light flashes, or, to be more accurate, if there is a flash, lasting only one millionth of a second, you probably wouldnât experience it, because it wouldnât give you enough time to remember it.
We say in customary speech, Well, it has to make an impression. So, in a way, all present knowledge is memory, because you look at something, and for a while the rods and cones in your retina respond to that, and they do their stuffâjiggle, jiggle, jiggle; itâs all vibrationâand so as you look at things, they set up a series of echoes in your brain. And these echoes keep reverberating, because the brain is very complicated. First of all, everything you know is remembered, but there is a way in which we distinguish between seeing somebody here now, and the memory of having seen somebody else whoâs not here now, but whom you did see in the past, and you know perfectly well, when you remember that other personâs face, itâs not an experience of the person being here. How is this? Because memory signals have a different cue attached to them than present-time signals. They come on a different kind of vibration. Sometimes, however, the wiring gets mixed up, and present experiences come to us with a memory cue attached to them, and then we have what is called a dĂ©jĂ vu experience: weâre quite sure weâve experienced this thing before.
But the problem that we donât seeâdonât ordinarily recognizeâis that, although memory is a series of signals with a special kind of cue attached to them so that we donât confuse them with present experience, they are actually all part of the same thing as present experience; they are all part of this constantly flowing life process, and there is no separate witness standing aside from the process, watching it go by. Youâre all involved in it. Now, accepting that, you seeâgoing with that; although, at first, it sounds like the knell of doomâis, if you donât clutch it anymore, splended. Thatâs why I said that death should be occasion for great celebration. That people should say Happy death! to you, and always surround death with joyous rites, because this is the opportunity for the greatest of all experiences, when you can finally let go because you know thereâs nothing else to do.
There was a kamikaze pilot who escaped because his planeâthat he was flying at an American aircraft carrierâwent wrong, and he landed in the water instead of hitting the plane, so he survived. But he said afterwards that he had the most extraordinary state of exaltation. It wasnât a kind of patriotic ecstasy. But the very thought that, in a moment, he would cease to existâhe would just be goneâfor some mysterious reason that he couldnât understand, made him feel absolutely like a god.
Well then, in Buddhist philosophy this sort of annihilation of oneself, this acceptance of change, is the doctrine of the world as the void. This doctrine did not emerge very clearly, very prominently, in Buddhism until quite a while after Gautama the Buddha had lived. We begin to find this, though, becoming prominent about the year 100 B.C., and by 200 A.D. it had reached its peak. And it was developed by the MahÄyÄna Buddhists, and it is the doctrine of a whole class of literature which goes by this complex name: PrajñÄpÄramitÄ. Now, âprajnaâ means wisdom. âParamita,â a crossing over, or going beyond. There is a small PrajñÄpÄramitÄ sĆ«tra, a big PrajñÄpÄramitÄ sĆ«tra, and then thereâs a little short summary of the whole thing called the háčdaya, or Heart Sutra, and that is recited by Buddhists all over Northern Asia, Tibet, China, and Japan, and it contains the saying, That which is void is precisely the world of form, that which is form is precisely the void. Form is emptiness, emptiness is form, and so on, and it elaborates on this theme. Itâs very short, but itâs always chanted at important Buddhist ceremonies. And so, it is supposedâby scholars of all kinds who have a missionary backgroundâthat the Buddhists are nihilists; that they teach that the world is really nothing, there isnât anything, and that there seems to be something is purely an illusion. But, of course, this philosophy is much more subtle than that.
The main person who was responsible for developing and maturing this philosophy was Nagarjuna, and he lived about 200 A.D.âone of the most astonishing minds that the human race has ever produced. And the name of Nagarjunaâs school of thought is Madhyamaka, which means, really, the Doctrine of the Middle Way. But itâs sometimes also called the Doctrine of Emptiness, or ĆĆ«nyavÄda, from the basic word ĆĆ«nya, or sometimes ĆĆ«nya has -ta added on the end, and that -ta means â-nessâââemptiness.â