[Verse]
I just wanna tell you I’m sorry, I really fucked it up
I threw it all away, was so fuckin’ dumb
I sleep by myself, I’m so fucking numb
I let you slip away from me, you was the one
I really hate myself, I wanna do this over
Tryna fight this feeling and I’m hardly sober
Should’ve called her back, I should’ve held her closer
Should’ve told her how much I fucking loved her
It was all because of my fucking pride
Look into your eyes, looking into mines
We was skin to skin, strawberry scent
Said I didn’t love you, but I really lied
Part of you had died, 6 months fly
Everything at the wrong time
Should’ve waitеd, I was in my wrong mind
...Fuck
And we cried togethеr
Had me thinking we was gonna die together
But I’m really sorry that I wasn’t there
Pushing you away like I just never cared
And I’m really sorry that I didn’t try
But it was fucking killing me to see you cry
I was ignorant and I was immature
Tried to run away, I wasn’t ready for it
Now I run in place
We could’ve had it all, what a fucking waste
I wanna see your face, we're in different spaces
Different people seeing different faces
She was one of one, I can’t replace it
Brain is racing and my heart is vacant and my head is pounding, I’ve been losing patience
Losing sleep, I can’t fucking take it, never thought my own thoughts would fucking break me
It’s complicated
Lately, I’ve been really contemplating
I’ve been overthinking
Never meant to put you in that situation
Really missing every conversation
All the hard times and the tribulations
Led to the day we had the confrontation
All you ever wanted some confirmation, and I feel short now of every expectation
Got complacent
Insecure, so I couldn’t face it
Ran away with no destination
Got lost coping with the separation
I was scared of you
Couldn’t see I wasn’t being fair to you
Couldn’t even make it to your birthday, I was the worst
I should’ve been there with you