​ahh, i’m going insane

[Spoken]
These last few years were traumatic and hectic
It was horrible, I felt trapped
Depression, suicidal thoughts, attempts- I felt hopeless
Tried to get help, nothing was available
Got arrested, disowned by my family
Didn't know what to do
Mentally and emotionally, I'm not there
I remember texting David and Alex about what I'm going through
They were concerned, asking why, more friends did the same
Either didn't rеply or when I did, saying "I'm fine"
Tried еvery possible solution, nothing worked
I gave up, tried to kill myself
Desperately needed help, but I knew it wasn't going to get any
More incidents and problems happened since my grandfather's death
No matter what I did, I made it worse in any way possible
Thinking that "Everyone that I upset, they're better off without me"
I'm still dealing with suicidal thoughts, anger and depression, also a myriad of other problems, but I'm okay
I still have amazing, supportive friends and family
They're always here for me, I'm here for them
I'm grateful for each one, knowing that they'll help me through this