Intro:
This goes out to all of the ones that have been affected
The women especially
The dudes of the chicks and friends of the chicks also apply
Lovestoned, I think that she knows
I’m talking way back when
From my first crush to my current lover
The older me would be saying sorry
I apologize now because I’m no longer a sorry person anymore
I’ve grown up
I’m talking about that first “girlfriend”
We dated for 3 days and I made you cry after that because I said you weren’t from the ghetto
While Colorado hasn’t had any ghettos that get on the level of Inner cities of California, New York, Illinois, etc I am aware that everyone has their own definition of ghetto
They have their own definition of the bottom
Going up the chain I had a girl I was doing spelling with in 2nd grade
She started laughing. I made a face that she stunk and said she should go to the bathroom
She came back all mad. I wasn’t trying to hurt you, we are all human
Don’t think you talked to me the same, if ever after that

Verse 1 (talking):
My first big crush was in 3rd grade, she was latina, puerto rican, black, I think a mixture of hella different races I remember I teased this girl and we did all of these projects together, she probably remembers. It was all good until I admitted I had a crush on her
After that it got mad awkward and she never hollered at me again
She was real shy and real cute so it’s no wonder why she backed off
Make sure a girl is the first one to portray her feelings to you first
Had another bigger crush in 4th-5th grade
I swore I was in love and maybe I was
Crying over Spring Break listening to Mario’s “Let me Love You”
I was whack and was scared of rejection so instead of approaching you like I did the first crush I always used messengers to tell you how I felt
I was the one that put your coat in the toilet by the way
I just wanted your attention
There was one day, your last day where you had enough and told one of my messengers that you would be standing there and if I had enough guts to tell you how I felt who knows but I was such a pussy. I climbed up the slide and just looked at you and couldn’t bring myself to tell you how I felt. I felt inadequate so I let you leave. The next year or so I hoped you would come back because you moved. I gave one of the messengers close to you valentines day cards and messages hoping they’d get to you. Never did
Another chick she went over to the UK now but back then she didn’t believe in God and pops had to raise me on that it doesn’t matter as long as she doesn’t believe in the devil
I made fun of you a bit but started to get close to you
You showed me how to create energy and we played game boy games
I wish that day after we went to Apex I had enough guts to kiss you as we were flirting pretty hard at that point
Middle school and high school came and we were just so different and we had virtual sex on IMVU way back ahaha
It was nice talking to you, should have talked to you sooner but I hope you and you current man are happy
6th grade to Senior year of high school I had my biggest young crush ever
9th grade to College I had a girl from 1st grade that I pined for
This isn’t necessarily about them directly as they had their light to shine
Long story short I wasn’t the former’s type and didn’t feel her transition to a ton of make up suited her. The ladder hurt me a lot and I hurt her some and I ended up forgiving her for all the pain she caused years later. I apologize to all of the women that I pushed aside and left hanging for these two women that really didn’t have love for me
The girls I met online during the early Youtube, chat room days
If I ever cheated on you, even virtually I apologize for that
As “minor” as it was it set the precedent for years to come
To my old best friend that’s living in New York, I apologize I never took the chance on you and remained close. We planned to fly out to see each other and were each other’s final person if nothing else worked out. I can’t blame you for growing away from me if I was too pussy to get a webcam and talk to you. Or minutes on a card to call you. We dated and I cheated on you too. I apologize for hurting you. I had love for you for so many years
Hope all is well
Moral of the story from childhood until now. Either do something about your crushes or let them go. You spend so many years tossing people aside vying for their attention when you could have given someone a chance that would have given it all for you
To all the girls I hurt in that frame of time that I met online and led you astray and built friendships and had you fall for me just for me to hurt you. I apologize about that
To my serious relationships, I apologize for cheating on you and having so many what-ifs, side pieces, and other flings. I cheated in every way possible besides the full thing. What happened on Friends I couldn’t stand the shit, but I couldn’t really blame Ross that was some Candid-shit
I spent so long wanting to say that on a song cause I was immature. I hurt you so much and though we fought a lot I’m so thankful you found me. I thankful for our journey and though I realized what I had done too late and you stood me up. I get it. Thank you for it all
For the last one that showed up to court, thank you for it all
The girls that I met between that ex and who I’m with now thank you for it all
It was pivotal, I wouldn’t be where I’m at today if it wasn’t for you
Verse 2 (talking):
The reason for the beat change is life goes on. At times it goes slowly
Other times it comes quickly
I said I love you to so many girls and had so many flings I spread myself thin
Really it was my lack of connection to my mother and I tried to fill the void with whatever I could
Girls were the greatest drug for me. It took me a while to get over myself and either man up and make a move or to see that a woman is a person and this addiction of escapism from looking at pixels on a screen never really helped me to perceive what a woman is here for. To all the girls at camp I didn’t make a move on and didn’t take further I apologize
To the women that had a man and wished I would come and get them I apologize if you had those expectations. I was a coward most of my years but there was one thing I was a man of honor about. That regarded being the only time I would steal a girl away from her man is if I felt I was adequate and able enough to do the same if not better than him. If not what was the point?
I’ve done my dirt and have influenced cheating and encouraged behavior that wasn’t just when in a relationship. I’ve called some girls out of their name for doing things with me in a relationship and that said more about me than them. Some of them helped me out when life was rough and I was a tub of lard and helped me to get on my feet in terms of confidence. I apologize there were times I treated you like a piece of ass. When there is mutual attraction however you can’t help me at my lowest and not expect me to show attraction to you when I come up. Some of you back off once I did and I don’t blame you, I respect that. I hope all is going well for you
To my favorite teacher I hope all is well with you. It wasn’t my intention to waste 6 months of your time. It was some of the best times of my life and you didn’t want kids but I did. We didn’t see eye to eye on everything but that passion was something to see. I enjoyed meeting your friends and you didn’t deserve me hurting you like that, I just was told something and held onto something I should have let go. I don’t regret kissing you in that club and sure we could have been a one night stand like I always wanted but I had more respect for you than that. I hope you take my advice and you find that man you’ve been looking for
You deserve it
Thank you all; apologize for everything
Lovestoned and I think that she knows
Perhaps part 2