Elusive
In The End
[Intro]
Yeah..
I just want everybody to know..
I don't mean nothing personal by what I say..
It's all just music to me..
And I feel nothing but love right now..
Happy valentines day..
Yo..

[Verse]
It's another story, you've heard about mine
But you ain't seeing me, you see the outline
In my mind, it's so cold and bitter
It's loneliness, cause I am only warm when I'm with her
Since when we met, you let me show affection
It seems distant, time can change your whole perception
But you were so sweet to me
Anytime I needed you, you were there to speak to me..
You tried to rescue me, when I was feeling stranded
And yet, somehow I still took you for granted
It's a cost, that I can't afford
Our relationship was done, when I went overboard
The water's frozen so I can't swim
I should have never took a chance in romance
When the only thing I want is to forget
Bitch, this ain't a love song, you got it confused, this is my regret
Now I'm letting go of everything
Forgetting love, when all you wanted was a steady fling
A big house, a nice car will complete her
Shallow minded, I'm reminded of what runs deeper
But I ain't wrong, she deserves no less
Feelings trap me, you know I wish you happiness
At my lowest you were there, and I was so blessed
But I'm cursed, so you're never gonna see me at my best..
And the memories will fade away
I'll show my true colours, you see in Shades of Grey
So treat my life like it's all fiction
Might as well, since I wrote my own crucifixion
You couldn't picture, what I depicted
I dove in front of a train, the pain is self-inflicted
Like I just want to leave this earth
Cause sometimes you need to die, for them realize what you were worth..
And I ain't saying this to make you mad
You left me broken, good, now I'm Breaking Bad
This ain't a moment, a camera could just capture
Forget the story, if you haven't read the last chapter
As I'm fighting through the sandstorm
Here I stand, still hoping I can transform
I'm inspired by the butterfly
Cause it can all change, in the blink, of an eye
I just want to see you when I come home
There's nothing I am more afraid of, than the unknown
Until the dark times came about
I used to see with love, but now the flame is out
So how'd I ever let you ruin me?
Forget a promise, all I got was promiscuity
But I'll find comfort, in different company
And fuck these sluts, the same way I know you used to like to fuck with me..
You say I'm crazy, but how can I be?
When you fit me to an insanity
I must be dreaming, as I'm sleep writing
Tryna find a reason, for me to keep fighting
When I'm too weak to hold a conversation
I miss you, so there is no miscommunication
But the memories I will erase
You wanna fuck? You'll fuck the whole human race
And all you needed was a change of pace
The warm embrace, of staring at a stranger's face
Without a trace, I was gone, try to collate
I guess you need a soul first, to find a soulmate
Feels like I'm walking in the falling rain
The closest I'mma get to balling, is my ball and chain
I'm held back by what you think I am
The real me ain't got a filter, I'm no Instagram
So you know this ain't no perfect picture
It's what I'm feeling, while I'm hanging from the ceiling fixture
They say it's suicidal tendency
So let me go, before I show you codependency
Just call me psycho, like it's logical
Since all of my problems are psychological
If I'm addicted, then I should quit
Cause now I've learnt, that you and I are not a good fit..
And you don't mind, whether I live or not
I used to wanna fight, but now I'm giving up
If I say it's love, though, I should mean forever
I guess we have to stay apart, just to be together
But the truth is, I'm the one that made you hate me
I couldn't let you get close, for your own safety
And you were more than just a friend
If love was real, I would try, but it always dies, in the end..